one thing people don't notice about me is if i see something i don't like,i get super defensive.right now,im feeling NOTHING but that.my brain is working like a machine.ready to lash out at anybody in my way.ready to say and do things to hurt other people.i hate feeling this way.brings me nothing but harm.it affects my relationship with people around me.AND it shows that i'm easily controlled by my feelings.like im thinking using my ass instead of my brain.whenever this happens,i feel the need to stay away from people.ya know.sebelum aku start kuarkan ayat2 kurang hajar.need to chillax for a bit.thanks for the call yana.i needed that.
im never stoked when it comes to heading back to Bangi.i hate leaving mum and dad here.
new word added to my vocabulary.all thanks to andy sixx.STOKED.
roger and out.want to spend as much time as possible with mummy.tonight,i dont care if i have to watch sappy korean dramas.as long as its with mom.
note : suddenly remembered.there was this one day i talked to yana.she told me this : "ego kau macam ego lelaki.." shit.really?that's bad then.
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Monday, June 28, 2010
9 Naughty Kids.
5 girls who are my nieces and 4 boys who are my nephews make up a team of 9 naughty kids,the youngest being a year old and the eldest being 10 years old.i love these kids ALOT.more than words can say.at times i do get annoyed at the whole bunch of them.ya know how kids are.stubborn, loud, noisy, messy.but i undeniably love them.tonight,i feel like i really miss them.so here i am looking at their pictures and smiling like a maniac.hahah.i might as well just post em here.this is all 9 of them.
on the right is Sakinah Afifah.she's the 1st grandchild in my family.she's 10,VERY soft spoken and shy.this is the one niece that i REALLY LOVE teasing because she laps it up by smiling,laughing and shrieking "Auntie Niniiiiiii!!!".hehe.i miss u kak yong.
beside her is her brother Muhammad Syukri.he's 8 and adores everything that has to do with Ultraman,Ben 10,Power Rangers etc etc etc you name it ! this nephew of mine is super attached to my sister, Nina since he was a baby.even now, he sleeps with my sister whenever he gets the chance.i miss u abang ngah.
now this is Sofiyyah Afifah.this year she's 6.she can draw VERY well and she absolutely loves posing for the camera ! and this niece of mine is very independent since she's the middle child and very very very sensitive.she has the sweetest smile ever and a very deep dimple on her left cheek just like my mom.hihih.i miss you sofiyyah.
Muhammad Shawqi.this dude is 4.everytime i see him,i feel like squeezing his cheeks till they fall off his face.tembam ! and his eyelashes curl like he's wearing mascara. suka ! =D when shawqi was a baby, he had the loudest and roughest voice of all.like his brother Syukri,he adores everything monster related.like his sister Sakinah,he's very shy and almost a loner.dia sangat suka senyum.i miss u shawqi.
then along comes Syazwina Afifah.she's 2 now.at home we call her wina.this is my niece with the hardest name to pronounce (at least for my mum.she keeps calling her Syazrina).she loves attention given by specifically men.we dunno why.she loves to giggle.and loves looking at cats.she's in the process of learning how to pronounce my name.hehe.i miss u wina.
Lyana Kamilia.she's the same age as Sakinah but seven months younger.this KL girl is up to date and very stylish.when my nieces and nephews play together,she's the queen bee that makes everything happen and bosses everyone around.she sure knows her way with words.she's also very brilliant and smart.i love hugging her cuz she's like my teddy bear.hihih.i miss u kamilia.
Kamilia's younger brother, Syamil Imran.Syamil is 5 this year.this little dude is a bundle of energy ! the only time he sits still is when he's asleep.he asks many many many questions (and sometimes i cant even answer em).hehe.he's very sweet and knows what to say to make people feel better (for example,tokwan cantik la pakai baju ni.hehe.).out of all my nephews,syamil is the funniest.hahahah.i miss u adik.
on to Amirah Atiqah who is 7 this year.if u look closely,her hair is brunette and STICK STRAIGHT.i love her hair.so soft.my dad said she would grow up to be a pretty lady.hihih.atiqah is very down to earth BUT she loves staying in hotels.she also likes singing.hehe.she also follows my habit whenever i sleep in bed : SANGAT BUAS macam binatang buas.like sofiyyah,she's sensitive too.i miss u atiqah.
the last and most recent one is Amir Saifullah who turned a year old last january.as soon as he was born,i thought he,among all my nephews,had the most mature face of all.he somehow seems un-baby-like.he loves screaming at the top of his lungs.hehe.he laughs whenever my sis-in-law gets angry at him. =)) he also look alot like my sister in law.he's only 1.but he loves disturbing his sister and pulling her hair.i miss u saif.
roger and out.tempe memanggil.hahahahahaha.
on the right is Sakinah Afifah.she's the 1st grandchild in my family.she's 10,VERY soft spoken and shy.this is the one niece that i REALLY LOVE teasing because she laps it up by smiling,laughing and shrieking "Auntie Niniiiiiii!!!".hehe.i miss u kak yong.beside her is her brother Muhammad Syukri.he's 8 and adores everything that has to do with Ultraman,Ben 10,Power Rangers etc etc etc you name it ! this nephew of mine is super attached to my sister, Nina since he was a baby.even now, he sleeps with my sister whenever he gets the chance.i miss u abang ngah.
now this is Sofiyyah Afifah.this year she's 6.she can draw VERY well and she absolutely loves posing for the camera ! and this niece of mine is very independent since she's the middle child and very very very sensitive.she has the sweetest smile ever and a very deep dimple on her left cheek just like my mom.hihih.i miss you sofiyyah.
Muhammad Shawqi.this dude is 4.everytime i see him,i feel like squeezing his cheeks till they fall off his face.tembam ! and his eyelashes curl like he's wearing mascara. suka ! =D when shawqi was a baby, he had the loudest and roughest voice of all.like his brother Syukri,he adores everything monster related.like his sister Sakinah,he's very shy and almost a loner.dia sangat suka senyum.i miss u shawqi.
then along comes Syazwina Afifah.she's 2 now.at home we call her wina.this is my niece with the hardest name to pronounce (at least for my mum.she keeps calling her Syazrina).she loves attention given by specifically men.we dunno why.she loves to giggle.and loves looking at cats.she's in the process of learning how to pronounce my name.hehe.i miss u wina.
Lyana Kamilia.she's the same age as Sakinah but seven months younger.this KL girl is up to date and very stylish.when my nieces and nephews play together,she's the queen bee that makes everything happen and bosses everyone around.she sure knows her way with words.she's also very brilliant and smart.i love hugging her cuz she's like my teddy bear.hihih.i miss u kamilia.
Kamilia's younger brother, Syamil Imran.Syamil is 5 this year.this little dude is a bundle of energy ! the only time he sits still is when he's asleep.he asks many many many questions (and sometimes i cant even answer em).hehe.he's very sweet and knows what to say to make people feel better (for example,tokwan cantik la pakai baju ni.hehe.).out of all my nephews,syamil is the funniest.hahahah.i miss u adik.
on to Amirah Atiqah who is 7 this year.if u look closely,her hair is brunette and STICK STRAIGHT.i love her hair.so soft.my dad said she would grow up to be a pretty lady.hihih.atiqah is very down to earth BUT she loves staying in hotels.she also likes singing.hehe.she also follows my habit whenever i sleep in bed : SANGAT BUAS macam binatang buas.like sofiyyah,she's sensitive too.i miss u atiqah.
the last and most recent one is Amir Saifullah who turned a year old last january.as soon as he was born,i thought he,among all my nephews,had the most mature face of all.he somehow seems un-baby-like.he loves screaming at the top of his lungs.hehe.he laughs whenever my sis-in-law gets angry at him. =)) he also look alot like my sister in law.he's only 1.but he loves disturbing his sister and pulling her hair.i miss u saif.
roger and out.tempe memanggil.hahahahahaha.
The Illuminati and Pop Stars. II
more links from The Vigilant Citizen.check it out.the first two links are a MUST read.find out what the song Umbrella really means.and in disturbia, notice the part where Rihanna sings "bum bum de dum dum..." again and again?it has a certain meaning to it.the meaning scared the shit out of me. T.T
- Occult and Prophetic Messages in Rihanna’s Umbrella
- Rihanna’s Disturbia: A Song about Being Possessed by
- Rihanna’s “Russian Roulette” or What’s Wrong with the Entertainment Industry
- Lady Gaga, the Illuminati Puppet – Part 2
- Lady Gaga’s “Alejandro”: The Occult Meaning
- Lady Gaga’s Bad Romance – The Occult Meaning
Sunday, June 27, 2010
The Illuminati and Pop Stars.
one of the things im highly interested in is concerning the Illuminati.from who to what,from where to how.u name it.im interested in EVERYTHING concerning that.below are a few links taken from the same website connecting pop stars (namely Lady Gaga, Paramore, Katy Perry, Christina Aguilera) to the Illuminati.a very interesting read indeed.the reality is pretty scary (at least for me).Credits go to The Vigilant Citizen.i haven't finished reading them all.but i thought this thing is super interesting and i couldn't wait to put it on my blog.
note : i had no idea who the hell Kerli was until i listened to Alice in Wonderland's OST album.Kerli sang a duet with Tokio Hotel called "Strange".now im starting to think that song has something to do with the Illuminati too.
- Lady Gaga, The Illuminati Puppet
- The Hidden Meaning of Lady Gaga's "Telephone"
- Transhumanism, PsyWar and B.E.P.’s “Imma Be”
- Kerli’s Creepy Video About Mind Control
- Paramore’s “Brick by Boring Brick”: A Song about Mind Control
note : i had no idea who the hell Kerli was until i listened to Alice in Wonderland's OST album.Kerli sang a duet with Tokio Hotel called "Strange".now im starting to think that song has something to do with the Illuminati too.
thoughts inc.
1. spent the whole day yesterday with mom hanging out eating fries,shopping and cooking.the last part doesn't sound like me at all.
2. already bought my baju raya.pretty early eh?my family isn't the kind to shop for baju raya EVERY single year.so its a pretty nice change getting to shop for it.i bought two.a black baju kebaya, i have always wanted one of those.nicely fit instead of the skin tight ones (i lack curves).and a very colorful baju kurung modern, upon mum's request.thank you mummy ! =)
3. telling the truth and end up hurting someone is always the better option than telling lies and living with guilt.
4. yesterday i had this weird dream.i carpooled with this girl i used to be close to (now not anymore),played with her hair and saw her texting this dude which bothered me ALOT.i woke up clueless.am i going through a turkish lesbian phase ? haha. =.="
5. there are at times when i think of doing the unthinkable and just go beserk.but the i realize..nahhh.its just not worth it.
6. mum told me if i didn't get an A for my BM,i must have been born into the wrong family of entirely Malays.i got a B+.so i guess im English then. =))
7. not being able to on9 is a lot better than being able to.me getting to go on9 means being cooped up in my room and spending less time with mum.
8. i dont ever want to go back to Bangi.i feel safe at home.like nothing can harm me.
9. somehow i feel like the entire world is disagreeing with me and being on his side.or maybe everything that my head comes up with seems to be in the wrong direction?
10. the truth is most of the time,i don't wanna get distracted by my friends.i wanna get distracted by YOU.you are what i call the PERFECT DISTRACTION.
roger and out.my reign of freedom of speech has begun.
2. already bought my baju raya.pretty early eh?my family isn't the kind to shop for baju raya EVERY single year.so its a pretty nice change getting to shop for it.i bought two.a black baju kebaya, i have always wanted one of those.nicely fit instead of the skin tight ones (i lack curves).and a very colorful baju kurung modern, upon mum's request.thank you mummy ! =)
3. telling the truth and end up hurting someone is always the better option than telling lies and living with guilt.
4. yesterday i had this weird dream.i carpooled with this girl i used to be close to (now not anymore),played with her hair and saw her texting this dude which bothered me ALOT.i woke up clueless.am i going through a turkish lesbian phase ? haha. =.="
5. there are at times when i think of doing the unthinkable and just go beserk.but the i realize..nahhh.its just not worth it.
6. mum told me if i didn't get an A for my BM,i must have been born into the wrong family of entirely Malays.i got a B+.so i guess im English then. =))
7. not being able to on9 is a lot better than being able to.me getting to go on9 means being cooped up in my room and spending less time with mum.
8. i dont ever want to go back to Bangi.i feel safe at home.like nothing can harm me.
9. somehow i feel like the entire world is disagreeing with me and being on his side.or maybe everything that my head comes up with seems to be in the wrong direction?
10. the truth is most of the time,i don't wanna get distracted by my friends.i wanna get distracted by YOU.you are what i call the PERFECT DISTRACTION.
roger and out.my reign of freedom of speech has begun.
Friday, June 25, 2010
So I Guess This Is Goodbye by I Am Ghost
to whom it may concern.report much?what a bitch.hahaha.instead of entertaining super dumb, two faced freaks like you who come in here to find news to tell the whole world just to get on someone's good side,i might as well listen to steven juliano.at least he sounds good.p.s : thanks to you,i have started cursing again.i stopped for a while back then.i was saving it for someone who REALLY deserved it.and that is YOU.so please feel honored.hehe.i dont give a damn anymore.im actually laughing. =))
"So I drew a goodnight kiss,
I said it was all for youHeld your face in time
But the miracles came crashing down
But it was too late; the killers came
With knives and dressed all in blue
As they suck me in
I take your hand, well, isn't this romantic?
He's learned a lot from watching you and I (lovely)
Just wish these dreams would follow through
Don't ever be afraid, 'cause I'm never letting go
Of your face since I knew there would be...
Blood spilling from your cut,
The ropes enwrapped you in love
Memories feed this disease
And I hate it
But it was too late, the killers home
And knows you well I assume
As my luck grows thin I take your hand
Well, isn't this romantic?
He's learned a lot from watching you and I (lovely)
Just wish I already knew
Don't ever be afraid, 'cause I'm never letting go
Of your face since I knew there would be blood.
Take these words I say, "Will you marry me?" to your grave
I knew you were the one.
This blood is love
You, me, I do, let's float away and die
You, me, I do, let's float away and die
He's learned a lot from watching you and I (lovely)
Tell the preacher to give our last goodbye
Don't ever be afraid, 'cause I'm never letting go
Of your face since I knew there would be blood.
Take these words I say, "Will you marry me?" to your grave
I knew you were the one,
The one, the one!
I knew there would be blood.."
more thoughts.
bam margera. RESPECT ! 2. yeah.i am a stalker.at least im brave enough to admit it.
3. malas nak ambil pusing nasihat orang yang CAKAP TAK SERUPA BIKIN.
4. so many TV reporters around me nowadays.get a life bitches !
5. what do u do when people who u think are ur friends turn out to be backstabbers ? ha ha ha. =))
6. "what am i gonna do next?whatever the fuck i want" Bam Margera.i cant help but agree with u.
7. yeah.i deserve it.i can accept the fact.so now let us all laugh ourselves crazy. =))
8. constantly telling myself to NOT talk about other people and the things that i might not know about them.i fail badly sometimes !
9. just to get on someone's good side,u don't necessarily have to diss other people.there are SO MANY other less desperate and less lame ways. =))
10. im craving sushi.wish i had a sushi king outlet right behind my house. =D
11. again seriously,if u dont like what u see,FUCK OFF.i dont need people to read my blog and go talking behind my back afterwards. =))
12. when life give u lemons,u make lemonade.when life give u shit,u make shit cookies?
13. batuk berdarah.nice one !
14. Mike Posner's Cooler Than Me.one helluva cool song !
15. im like a broken toy.why waste time fixing and taking care of it ? hahaha.
16. one lesson i learned.u CANT SHUT people's mouth.
17. i thought after going through TOO MUCH in ur life,at least u would be MORE MATURE.get off my case u dumb ass.i know im not mature.hahaha.
18. i love the rain.it washes away my pain.hey man it rhymes ! =)
19. people NEVER fail to disappoint me. =))
20. nak jaga mummy and baba sampai matiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii !
roger and out.
note : post ini tiada kena mengena dengan yang hidup atau yang dah mati atau yang aku sendiri nak bunuh bagi mati.figure out the maths urself ! hahahahahahah.okay.now lets all go and talk behind people's backs ! seronok wehhhhh ! XD
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
group me likey!
i have been trying to sleep this headache and upset tummy off.another failed attempt.so here i am.wincing slighty and squinting my eyes in front of the laptop typing yet another post while waiting for baba to pick me up.he wants me to go buy some satay for him.whatever u say dad.hehe.im feeling so uncomfy right now.like my body parts are about to fall off.my nose is starting to run (and where the hell did i get this cold from!?).im not here to say much.just here to complain.hehe.people say its not nice to complain when ur sick.reason?well.mainly because getting sick is actually a grace from Allah.when u get sick,ur small sins get washed away.so.must.hold.on.must.not.continue.complaining.
and hey.i found this group on facebook.i wasted no time clicking the like button underneath this group name.its called
"i'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. i make mistakes, i am out of control and at times hard to handle. but if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.. - marilyn monroe"
did marilyn monroe actually say this?who cares anyway?hehe.its the group name that matters the most.and i REALLY like it.only because i think relationships are about give and take.u dont necessarily have to change EVERY single thing about urself to suit ur partner.yes.u do change the REALLY REALLY bad stuff (i mean u wouldnt want a murderer or mat ganja for a boyfriend right?).the little things?well.how about acceptance for a change?kalau melampau sangat aku rasa orang gila pun tak tahan.betul?
roger and out ! baba dah sampai !
and hey.i found this group on facebook.i wasted no time clicking the like button underneath this group name.its called
"i'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. i make mistakes, i am out of control and at times hard to handle. but if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.. - marilyn monroe"
did marilyn monroe actually say this?who cares anyway?hehe.its the group name that matters the most.and i REALLY like it.only because i think relationships are about give and take.u dont necessarily have to change EVERY single thing about urself to suit ur partner.yes.u do change the REALLY REALLY bad stuff (i mean u wouldnt want a murderer or mat ganja for a boyfriend right?).the little things?well.how about acceptance for a change?kalau melampau sangat aku rasa orang gila pun tak tahan.betul?
roger and out ! baba dah sampai !
Falling Slowly by The Frames.
listened to this song for the first time this afternoon.Jonathan Platero and Karla Garcia from So You Think You Can Dance Season 5 did a contemporary number choreographed by Stacey Tookey,a canadian choreographer using this song.it was BEAUTIFUL.their moves were so swift,fluid like and consistent.how i wish i have that kind of talent in dancing.Karla is like super pretty.Jonathan is not bad too.and.this song rocks!lagu comel.hehe.
"I don't know you
But I want you
All the more for that
Words fall through me
And always fool me
And I can't react
And games that never amount
To more than they're meant
Will play themselves out
Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice
You've made it now
Falling slowly, eyes that know me
And I can't go back
Moods that take me and erase me
And I'm painted black
You have suffered enough
And warred with yourself
It's time that you won
Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice
You've made it now
Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice
You've made it now
Falling slowly sing your melody
I'll sing along.."
"I don't know you
But I want you
All the more for that
Words fall through me
And always fool me
And I can't react
And games that never amount
To more than they're meant
Will play themselves out
Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice
You've made it now
Falling slowly, eyes that know me
And I can't go back
Moods that take me and erase me
And I'm painted black
You have suffered enough
And warred with yourself
It's time that you won
Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice
You've made it now
Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice
You've made it now
Falling slowly sing your melody
I'll sing along.."
hooliday.
i hate to use the word bored whenever i'm at home.when im at home,the word bored becomes a taboo.just like the f-word.i dont and wont allow myself to utter that word aloud or mention it in my facebook status or in any of my tweets.because home is heaven!how can heaven be boring?or maybe im just too ego to admit that im bored.ya know.to preserve the specialty of this house being well..my home obviously.
what have i achieved so far this holiday?surprise!ABSOLUTELY NOTHING.unless u count my failed attempts to understand what chapter one of Random Process is all about (i have been on the same page since last night.my brain cells seems to be dropping dead by the minute.susah betul nak paham!padahal pasal set je.alaa.yang belajar kat sekolah menengah dulu.).well.there is however a bit of improvement on my relationship with my former paramour.i hope everything goes okay.
today i realized that i might be allergic to spaghetti.every time i cram a bowl of spaghetti down my throat,i get this queasy feeling in my tummy.the same thing happens when i drink strawberry milk.man.im such a weirdo.
roger and out.imma find something to do.read summore Random maybe.or dig a hole on my bedroom wall.whatever to keep my mind occupied and not brain-dead ! =.="
nowplaying : Sweet Child of Mine by Guns n Roses
what have i achieved so far this holiday?surprise!ABSOLUTELY NOTHING.unless u count my failed attempts to understand what chapter one of Random Process is all about (i have been on the same page since last night.my brain cells seems to be dropping dead by the minute.susah betul nak paham!padahal pasal set je.alaa.yang belajar kat sekolah menengah dulu.).well.there is however a bit of improvement on my relationship with my former paramour.i hope everything goes okay.
today i realized that i might be allergic to spaghetti.every time i cram a bowl of spaghetti down my throat,i get this queasy feeling in my tummy.the same thing happens when i drink strawberry milk.man.im such a weirdo.
roger and out.imma find something to do.read summore Random maybe.or dig a hole on my bedroom wall.whatever to keep my mind occupied and not brain-dead ! =.="
nowplaying : Sweet Child of Mine by Guns n Roses
Sunday, June 20, 2010
a million or so hearts to baba.
baba during his Navy dayshe's my SUPER DUPER hero.he never laid a finger on me in my twenty one years of living.i've disappointed him in so many ways,whether seen or unseen.he has never missed taking my report card every year in school even when i get shitty grades.never fail to crack me up with his jokes and his perakian accent.never fail to teach me the things i need to know about life.
i was born when baba was 46 and mum,42.how i wish i was born earlier so that i would have extra days with him and mom.among all my siblings,i get the least days to spend with him and mom since im the youngest.
till this day,baba has never failed to be there for me,whenever i need him.the sacrifices u made for me,priceless.i can never repay u.dont know what i'd do without you.i love you lots baba.happy father's day.
MTV World Stage Live In Malaysia 2010
when? 31st July 2010 at 6pm
where? sunway surf beach @ sunway lagoon, KL
what? bunkface,katy perry,TOKIO HOTEL,wondergirls
where? sunway surf beach @ sunway lagoon, KL
what? bunkface,katy perry,TOKIO HOTEL,wondergirls
tokio hotel coming down for the second time in three months?WOWZA.they must really love malaysia ! wanna watch them live alongside Katy Perry.woot woot ! anyone who has free passes and would like to sell them,please tell me ASAP.would really love to go.
arigatou gozaimasu.roger and out !
arigatou gozaimasu.roger and out !
things i did today.
im not really in the mood to talk today.so i'll be using pictures.aren't many.only two.pictures say a thousand words and have certain meanings to certain people.
went here today.i felt the need to go here and just be alone for a little while.away from the rest of the world.this place holds too many memories,most of them worth remembering.some made me laugh.some made me cry.it isn't really a sight to behold.there u can see,bald patches of land here and there.but the sky is so blue and spread so wide.made me realize how small and broken i am.
after that,i was ready to face the world.the first place i went to was yana's.another hangout session with my four best friends including haryati ain via webcam,even when she's too far away.they are just what i need.my drug.oh.and these little cupcakes too.thanks liyana kamilah.delish.
roger and out.bathe.
even when i have them,its just not the same without you.you belong to someone else now.so let this be the last glance you ever take here.after this,no more.promise me that.
went here today.i felt the need to go here and just be alone for a little while.away from the rest of the world.this place holds too many memories,most of them worth remembering.some made me laugh.some made me cry.it isn't really a sight to behold.there u can see,bald patches of land here and there.but the sky is so blue and spread so wide.made me realize how small and broken i am.
after that,i was ready to face the world.the first place i went to was yana's.another hangout session with my four best friends including haryati ain via webcam,even when she's too far away.they are just what i need.my drug.oh.and these little cupcakes too.thanks liyana kamilah.delish.
roger and out.bathe.
even when i have them,its just not the same without you.you belong to someone else now.so let this be the last glance you ever take here.after this,no more.promise me that.
fate part two.
im writing my previous post in a different manner since my ex boyfriend said im making up stories.puas hati ?
you know this whole me being a dancer thing?i think fate really has been biting me in the ass all along without me realizing.its like fate was written in a way to stop me from getting involved in dancing.i was doing fine during my early years.at that time,i got to dance for like...a year.after that,i got into what i thought was a super steady relationship for almost two years.during that time,i gave up dancing because well,being the "obedient" girlfriend that i was,i followed what my boyfriend then wanted.he had his reasons for not letting me dance.but on the verge of breaking up with him,i did join a couple of shows (how many?well trust me.u wouldn't finish counting them using the fingers on your right hand).last november,we broke up.so i got involved in more dancing.i haven't been dancing for even a year when we got banned last may.get what i mean?as soon as i start to get serious in dancing,there will always be someone or something to stop me.fate has a way of twisting itself.i would never blame fate and say fate is cruel.haha.but i can see where fate is taking me.down the "let's not get involved in dancing" road.hahaha. =))
roger and out.there's a knot in my chest im trying to ease out.all thanks to toy story.thank u for the sad ending woody ! why oh why did Andy have to say goodbye ?
you know this whole me being a dancer thing?i think fate really has been biting me in the ass all along without me realizing.its like fate was written in a way to stop me from getting involved in dancing.i was doing fine during my early years.at that time,i got to dance for like...a year.after that,i got into what i thought was a super steady relationship for almost two years.during that time,i gave up dancing because well,being the "obedient" girlfriend that i was,i followed what my boyfriend then wanted.he had his reasons for not letting me dance.but on the verge of breaking up with him,i did join a couple of shows (how many?well trust me.u wouldn't finish counting them using the fingers on your right hand).last november,we broke up.so i got involved in more dancing.i haven't been dancing for even a year when we got banned last may.get what i mean?as soon as i start to get serious in dancing,there will always be someone or something to stop me.fate has a way of twisting itself.i would never blame fate and say fate is cruel.haha.but i can see where fate is taking me.down the "let's not get involved in dancing" road.hahaha. =))
roger and out.there's a knot in my chest im trying to ease out.all thanks to toy story.thank u for the sad ending woody ! why oh why did Andy have to say goodbye ?
fate.
you know this whole me being a dancer thing?i think fate really has been biting me in the ass all along without me realizing.its like fate was written in a way to stop me from getting involved in dancing.i was doing fine during my early years.at that time,i got to dance for like...a year.after that,i got into what i thought was a super steady relationship for almost two years.during that time,i gave up dancing completely because well,being the "obedient" girlfriend that i was,i followed what my boyfriend then wanted.he had his reasons for not letting me dance.last november,we broke up.so i got involved in more dancing.i haven't been dancing for even a year when we got banned last may.get what i mean?as soon as i start to get serious in dancing,there will always be someone or something to stop me.fate has a way of twisting itself.i would never blame fate and say fate is cruel.haha.but i can see where fate is taking me.down the "let's not get involved in dancing" road.hahaha. =))
roger and out.there's a knot in my chest im trying to ease out.all thanks to toy story.thank u for the sad ending woody ! why oh why did Andy have to say goodbye ?
roger and out.there's a knot in my chest im trying to ease out.all thanks to toy story.thank u for the sad ending woody ! why oh why did Andy have to say goodbye ?
Saturday, June 19, 2010
oh Sandra !
confession : im in love with Sandra.im dedicating an entire entry under her name.i must love her alot huh?eww.creepy much?hahah.here i give you,Sandra Ivette Alvarenga.i checked out Black Veil Brides' latest music video for their single "Perfect Weapon".click here to watch the video.there i was,staring at the laptop waiting not-so patiently for the video to load (sue me,i have a super mediocre internet speed.haha).there came this scene involving a dude wearing shades.i assumed it to be a dude because he looked so tough.but then i was like..okay why does this dude have boobs?i know they have a girl in BVB.but im confused between two of their band members.one of them somehow looks shemale-ish (i found out much later that his name is Ashley.get my point now?).i made a quick google search and found out that "dude" turns out to be Sandra Alvarenga.so why do i love Sandra?simple.i like rocker chicks even if they look like dudes.Sandra looks super sexy with her tattoos,piercings and leather jacket.sorry lisa surihani.u fall to the number two spot.roger and out.better stop now before someone starts getting ideas of me being a lesbian.haha.
nowplaying : Perfect Weapon by Black Veil Brides
note : this is how Sandra really looks like ! click here. =)
banned.
i forgot to blog bout this thing that made me sad for an entire week ! it happened during the previous special semester.we were supposed to practice for TNB Sports Carnival's opening ceremony about two weeks before the actual performance which was scheduled sometime around mid may.but somehow as mid may drew closer,only one or two training sessions were held.then there were no more.we all texted kak sha only to get zero replies.the dance team was left with question marks.in my mind,it meant only one thing : the show was canceled.so i was like..okay never mind, its just one show.
one friday before the show,we were all called to kak sha's room.as predicted,the upcoming show was canceled.and then she explained what i thought was the most heart-wrenching news EVER.the whole world knows that my college has previously won some kind of industrial award.so,they are trying to win yet another award so that they can put it up on a shelf and leave it to collect dust there : the Syariah award.yes people.they are slowly turning my college into something like UIA.fancy huh?
they are applying changes step by step.the first department that gets the honor of doing so is of course USK (unit sukan dan kebudayaan.if i go out for shows,i represent this department).the gym in my college fyi is now seperated into male and female sessions.they will also be building a roof for the current open air swimming pool so that arab dudes residing on the seventh to tenth floor of cendi can't peep at girls swimming.these things i approve.well done.
but somehow,the traditional dance team has also fallen to become one of this award..well..how should i say it in a more subtle way.."victim".i nearly cried when kak sha broke the news to us.i cried summore when they invited UITM Shah Alam to perform at the opening ceremony instead of us.i was so fuckin disappointed. T.T
1. muslim girls in the dance team are no longer allowed to dance at ANY shows either inside or outside the faculty.only muslim boys are allowed.
2. muslim girls however,can perform IF AND ONLY IF the audience consist of WOMEN ONLY.
3. non-muslim girls are most welcomed to fill up the vacancies in the dance team to represent the faculty.
the reason they gave us for doing this?haa.part ni kena cakap melayu.
1. dorang kata kalau orang2 TNB tengok perempuan menari,nnt dorang naik.naik apa paham2 la.penat aku tahan nak mencarut ni.the faculty is famous for giving students LAME excuses such as this.we are innocent students who have a passion for traditional dance.x pernah pulak kitorg wat tarian bogel ke.tarian lucah ke.pole dancing ke.ayam betul.the way they put it,its as if we're a bunch of prostitutes or kak sha's anak ayam.
2. apart from that,they said dancing might lead to maksiat.okay.this part,i get.but please.in my two years of dancing experience,not even ONCE kak sha let the boys and girls touch one another in ANY of our dance routines.she's even against it ! tarian melayu x pernah pulak aku tengok ada pegang2 ke peluk2.modern dancing,yes.but we dont do modern dancing ! they said they are looking to prevent maksiat from happening right?so why not ban the WHOLE team instead of letting the dudes dance with non-muslim girls?its the same thing as them dancing with muslim girls !
this is what happens when u have a bunch of THINKERS among the faculty members.bijak sangat.they do stuff blindly without taking into account what students think when students are supposed to be their topmost priority.the same thing goes for the price hike in the accommodation fees.rumah macam bangang.tak selamat.selalu kena rompak.tiap2 kali lalu kat guard post,mesti guard tengah membuta or bergayut kat phone.tp sewa mahal nak mampos.bitches.all they care about is money.they rake in millions every month in house rents alone and yet students don't have a decent place to study sampai kena merempat kat mcd malam2 buta.how can we study inside the university compound when they turn off the lights at COE at 3am (because a couple was caught making out there) and the air cond at the library at midnight?how is this fair?!yes.we have our own room to study.but how about those who find the need to group study?study kat bilik dengan hantu?dahla yuran mahal nak mampos.suwey betul.if i knew things would be this shitty,i might as well go study at an IPTA.at least the fee is cheaper there.
so now,since i am banned from dancing for my college,i've been dancing for JARI Studio instead.there aren't many shows.only two so far.one was an informal performance.the other was me teaching a few school kids inang and joget.ahh well.i've been trying to look at this whole banned thing from a whole new perspective.with less shows,i can concentrate on my junior and senior year.right?its not the end of the world.but i cant help feeling frustrated.
roger and out.1.30am already?!!wayyy past my bedtime! >.<
nitey people.
one friday before the show,we were all called to kak sha's room.as predicted,the upcoming show was canceled.and then she explained what i thought was the most heart-wrenching news EVER.the whole world knows that my college has previously won some kind of industrial award.so,they are trying to win yet another award so that they can put it up on a shelf and leave it to collect dust there : the Syariah award.yes people.they are slowly turning my college into something like UIA.fancy huh?
they are applying changes step by step.the first department that gets the honor of doing so is of course USK (unit sukan dan kebudayaan.if i go out for shows,i represent this department).the gym in my college fyi is now seperated into male and female sessions.they will also be building a roof for the current open air swimming pool so that arab dudes residing on the seventh to tenth floor of cendi can't peep at girls swimming.these things i approve.well done.
but somehow,the traditional dance team has also fallen to become one of this award..well..how should i say it in a more subtle way.."victim".i nearly cried when kak sha broke the news to us.i cried summore when they invited UITM Shah Alam to perform at the opening ceremony instead of us.i was so fuckin disappointed. T.T
1. muslim girls in the dance team are no longer allowed to dance at ANY shows either inside or outside the faculty.only muslim boys are allowed.
2. muslim girls however,can perform IF AND ONLY IF the audience consist of WOMEN ONLY.
3. non-muslim girls are most welcomed to fill up the vacancies in the dance team to represent the faculty.
the reason they gave us for doing this?haa.part ni kena cakap melayu.
1. dorang kata kalau orang2 TNB tengok perempuan menari,nnt dorang naik.naik apa paham2 la.penat aku tahan nak mencarut ni.the faculty is famous for giving students LAME excuses such as this.we are innocent students who have a passion for traditional dance.x pernah pulak kitorg wat tarian bogel ke.tarian lucah ke.pole dancing ke.ayam betul.the way they put it,its as if we're a bunch of prostitutes or kak sha's anak ayam.
2. apart from that,they said dancing might lead to maksiat.okay.this part,i get.but please.in my two years of dancing experience,not even ONCE kak sha let the boys and girls touch one another in ANY of our dance routines.she's even against it ! tarian melayu x pernah pulak aku tengok ada pegang2 ke peluk2.modern dancing,yes.but we dont do modern dancing ! they said they are looking to prevent maksiat from happening right?so why not ban the WHOLE team instead of letting the dudes dance with non-muslim girls?its the same thing as them dancing with muslim girls !
this is what happens when u have a bunch of THINKERS among the faculty members.bijak sangat.they do stuff blindly without taking into account what students think when students are supposed to be their topmost priority.the same thing goes for the price hike in the accommodation fees.rumah macam bangang.tak selamat.selalu kena rompak.tiap2 kali lalu kat guard post,mesti guard tengah membuta or bergayut kat phone.tp sewa mahal nak mampos.bitches.all they care about is money.they rake in millions every month in house rents alone and yet students don't have a decent place to study sampai kena merempat kat mcd malam2 buta.how can we study inside the university compound when they turn off the lights at COE at 3am (because a couple was caught making out there) and the air cond at the library at midnight?how is this fair?!yes.we have our own room to study.but how about those who find the need to group study?study kat bilik dengan hantu?dahla yuran mahal nak mampos.suwey betul.if i knew things would be this shitty,i might as well go study at an IPTA.at least the fee is cheaper there.
so now,since i am banned from dancing for my college,i've been dancing for JARI Studio instead.there aren't many shows.only two so far.one was an informal performance.the other was me teaching a few school kids inang and joget.ahh well.i've been trying to look at this whole banned thing from a whole new perspective.with less shows,i can concentrate on my junior and senior year.right?its not the end of the world.but i cant help feeling frustrated.
roger and out.1.30am already?!!wayyy past my bedtime! >.<
nitey people.
Friday, June 18, 2010
Wherever You Will Go by The Calling.
no matter what you did, i'm just not made to hate you.surprisingly this time,i have no grudge against you.i guess that's what love does.it makes you blind.
"So lately, been wondering
Who will be there to take my place
When I'm gone you'll need love
To light the shadows on your face
If a greater wave shall fall
And fall upon us all
Then between the sand and stone
Could you make it on your own?
If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go
And maybe, I'll find out
A way to make it back someday
To watch you, to guide you
Through the darkest of your days
If a great wave shall fall
And fall upon us all
Well then I hope there's someone out there
Who can bring me back to you
If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go
Run away with my heart
Run away with my hope
Run away with my love
I know now, just quite how
My life and love might still go on
In your heart, in your mind
I'll stay with you for all of time
If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way, way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go
If I could turn back time
I'll go wherever you will go
If I could make you mine
I'll go wherever you will go
I'll go wherever you will go.."
"So lately, been wondering
Who will be there to take my place
When I'm gone you'll need love
To light the shadows on your face
If a greater wave shall fall
And fall upon us all
Then between the sand and stone
Could you make it on your own?
If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go
And maybe, I'll find out
A way to make it back someday
To watch you, to guide you
Through the darkest of your days
If a great wave shall fall
And fall upon us all
Well then I hope there's someone out there
Who can bring me back to you
If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go
Run away with my heart
Run away with my hope
Run away with my love
I know now, just quite how
My life and love might still go on
In your heart, in your mind
I'll stay with you for all of time
If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way, way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go
If I could turn back time
I'll go wherever you will go
If I could make you mine
I'll go wherever you will go
I'll go wherever you will go.."
thoughts.
i feel the need to blog before i curl up in bed.back to my random list of thoughts.
1. NOTHING ever happens without a valid reason.there's always a reason behind something.
2. i should know by now that LIFE'S A BITCH.so why is it so hard for me to grasp the idea of acceptance?
3. "twenty one.still too young to talk of love." these words are the words of a sore LOSER.who said it?me.
4. sometimes i miss my school life.the part where i have such rockin friends.including the dude i recently dated.
5. 21 years of living and now i can truly say, "girls give sex to get love,guys give love to get sex"
6. being on the hook is never fun ! keeping someone on the hook on the other hand is a nice ego boost.
7. i support SWITZERLAND for the world cup because that's where i want to go for my honeymoon when i get married.LAME ENOUGH FOR YOU?
8. the thought of that certain dude being with someone else makes me want to hang myself on a noose and just DIE.
9. again i repeat,LIFE'S A BITCH.face it.
10. there are so many things i want to change about myself.somehow i need to correct my nawaitu first.change for myself.not for someone else.
11. when u change for someone else,the results will only be TEMPORARY.
12. FAIZAL TAHIR'S SAMPAI SYURGA.buat aku gila woi.terasa tau.
13. still remember baba's words to me yesterday that made me laugh so hard, "sejak bila suka tengok bola ni?judi ke?" hahahahahahahaha. XD
14. currently listening to alot of ATREYU and I AM GHOST.
15. recently developed this habit of feeling the back of my mouth with my tongue.reason?wisdom teeth.
16. friend's wedding on the 3rd of July in putrajaya.only 23,already married and will be honeymooning in dublin,ireland.a big WOW there.
17. SILVERSTEIN'S AMERICAN DREAM.never do this on your wedding day unless u want to get skinned alive.
18. im drowning in my own pool of memories and its not doing me ANY GOOD.
19. SEVEN MONTHS AND TWO DAYS.im still alive and breathing instead of lying in a ditch somewhere.that's a bit of progress right?
20. one thing about me.if i start loving someone FOR REAL (excluding puppy love please),there's no reverse gear OR brakes.i can only go FORWARD once i move.
roger and out.bed calling.meow.meow.and patrick too.
1. NOTHING ever happens without a valid reason.there's always a reason behind something.
2. i should know by now that LIFE'S A BITCH.so why is it so hard for me to grasp the idea of acceptance?
3. "twenty one.still too young to talk of love." these words are the words of a sore LOSER.who said it?me.
4. sometimes i miss my school life.the part where i have such rockin friends.including the dude i recently dated.
5. 21 years of living and now i can truly say, "girls give sex to get love,guys give love to get sex"
6. being on the hook is never fun ! keeping someone on the hook on the other hand is a nice ego boost.
7. i support SWITZERLAND for the world cup because that's where i want to go for my honeymoon when i get married.LAME ENOUGH FOR YOU?
8. the thought of that certain dude being with someone else makes me want to hang myself on a noose and just DIE.
9. again i repeat,LIFE'S A BITCH.face it.
10. there are so many things i want to change about myself.somehow i need to correct my nawaitu first.change for myself.not for someone else.
11. when u change for someone else,the results will only be TEMPORARY.
12. FAIZAL TAHIR'S SAMPAI SYURGA.buat aku gila woi.terasa tau.
13. still remember baba's words to me yesterday that made me laugh so hard, "sejak bila suka tengok bola ni?judi ke?" hahahahahahahaha. XD
14. currently listening to alot of ATREYU and I AM GHOST.
15. recently developed this habit of feeling the back of my mouth with my tongue.reason?wisdom teeth.
16. friend's wedding on the 3rd of July in putrajaya.only 23,already married and will be honeymooning in dublin,ireland.a big WOW there.
17. SILVERSTEIN'S AMERICAN DREAM.never do this on your wedding day unless u want to get skinned alive.
18. im drowning in my own pool of memories and its not doing me ANY GOOD.
19. SEVEN MONTHS AND TWO DAYS.im still alive and breathing instead of lying in a ditch somewhere.that's a bit of progress right?
20. one thing about me.if i start loving someone FOR REAL (excluding puppy love please),there's no reverse gear OR brakes.i can only go FORWARD once i move.
roger and out.bed calling.meow.meow.and patrick too.
Monday, June 14, 2010
toes.
there was one night during the special semester where i went out with my friends,ya know the usual crowd of naz,daus and dee.we went out with the sole intention of getting supper.we did but cant remember where.murni ss2 PJ i think.we finished eating and thought,hey the night is still quite early,where are we headed to next?after several not-so-heated discussions,we decided to finish our never-ending quest of searching for Pullman's Lakeside (that night was the fourth night we went out to look for it).we searched high and low.finally,there it was.
the very peaceful and quiet lake (mainly cause it was already 12am).i fell in love with the place as soon as i got there.there are a few wooden platforms (no handrails) that extends from the side to a quarter of the lake.so if u walk to the end one of the platforms,u'll feel like ur sitting on water.it sorts of feel like ur on a cruise ship with the water beneath u moving slowly.VERY windy.and that night,it was starry.Subhanallah.cantik.i lied down on the platform with my handbag as a pillow and just stared at the sky.i half wished that i was there stargazing,enjoying the cold quiet windy night and holding hands with my loved one.haha.cheesy. =) we sat there hanging out and just talking for three straight hours till the security guy told us to go home.haha.
one of things that we talked about was toes.it all started from me noticing naz's foot.his index toe (google it geeks) is longer than his big toe.so i said to naz, "weh panjangnya jari kaki ko yang sebelah ibu jari tu.." he replied while pointing at his foot, "haah.orang kata kalau jari kaki yang sebelah ibu jari ni lagi panjang,maknanya mak akan meninggal dulu.ibu jari mewakili mak.jari yang sebelah ni mewakili ayah." since his mum is gone,naz said it does kinda apply to him.
when he said that,i instantly looked at my foot.my index toe is shorter than my big toe.it got me sad for a lil while back there.i nearly cried.i cant imagine life without my dad.who would i turn to?him being 67.that's not exactly what u call young anymore. ='|
my heart goes out to the people out there especially yat and naz who have lost their loved ones and still manage to continue living.that kind of courage can only be found in brave and strong people.i respect u guys for it.
roger and out.haihhhh.
i know someone would contradict me for going out late at night.i know its not nice for girls to do that.the fact is right here in my head and i acknowledge it.but let me get this straight.there aren't any difference between going out late at night either with u or my friends.its still called "going out late at night" for heaven's sake.unless my friends are serial killers or rapers.even if ur a guy,doesnt mean u can get away with going out late.stopping me from eating out with my friends late at night but at the same time taking me out for a late night movie is NOT COOL.unless u r legally married to me.plus,my friends are ur friends too.deal with it.
the very peaceful and quiet lake (mainly cause it was already 12am).i fell in love with the place as soon as i got there.there are a few wooden platforms (no handrails) that extends from the side to a quarter of the lake.so if u walk to the end one of the platforms,u'll feel like ur sitting on water.it sorts of feel like ur on a cruise ship with the water beneath u moving slowly.VERY windy.and that night,it was starry.Subhanallah.cantik.i lied down on the platform with my handbag as a pillow and just stared at the sky.i half wished that i was there stargazing,enjoying the cold quiet windy night and holding hands with my loved one.haha.cheesy. =) we sat there hanging out and just talking for three straight hours till the security guy told us to go home.haha.
one of things that we talked about was toes.it all started from me noticing naz's foot.his index toe (google it geeks) is longer than his big toe.so i said to naz, "weh panjangnya jari kaki ko yang sebelah ibu jari tu.." he replied while pointing at his foot, "haah.orang kata kalau jari kaki yang sebelah ibu jari ni lagi panjang,maknanya mak akan meninggal dulu.ibu jari mewakili mak.jari yang sebelah ni mewakili ayah." since his mum is gone,naz said it does kinda apply to him.
when he said that,i instantly looked at my foot.my index toe is shorter than my big toe.it got me sad for a lil while back there.i nearly cried.i cant imagine life without my dad.who would i turn to?him being 67.that's not exactly what u call young anymore. ='|
my heart goes out to the people out there especially yat and naz who have lost their loved ones and still manage to continue living.that kind of courage can only be found in brave and strong people.i respect u guys for it.
roger and out.haihhhh.
i know someone would contradict me for going out late at night.i know its not nice for girls to do that.the fact is right here in my head and i acknowledge it.but let me get this straight.there aren't any difference between going out late at night either with u or my friends.its still called "going out late at night" for heaven's sake.unless my friends are serial killers or rapers.even if ur a guy,doesnt mean u can get away with going out late.stopping me from eating out with my friends late at night but at the same time taking me out for a late night movie is NOT COOL.unless u r legally married to me.plus,my friends are ur friends too.deal with it.
ily.
ily.
i,love and you.
three simple words.
in one perfect sentence.
can make u smile.
can make u sad.
can make your heart beat faster.
can make your heart grow fonder.
can come out right.
can come out wrong.
can mean so much.
and then mean so little.
so when u get a chance to say i love you to someone,
make sure u mean each and every word.
appreciate every syllable spoken.
dont say it out of spite.
dont say it too often.
cuz when your ily's start to lose its meaning,
it aint fun.
and u'll feel broken.
roger and out.time for bedddd.zzzzzzzzzzzzz.
reminiscing my old memories.thats why i wrote this entry.like everybody else,i've had experiences with ily's.still living.still learning. =)
i,love and you.
three simple words.
in one perfect sentence.
can make u smile.
can make u sad.
can make your heart beat faster.
can make your heart grow fonder.
can come out right.
can come out wrong.
can mean so much.
and then mean so little.
so when u get a chance to say i love you to someone,
make sure u mean each and every word.
appreciate every syllable spoken.
dont say it out of spite.
dont say it too often.
cuz when your ily's start to lose its meaning,
it aint fun.
and u'll feel broken.
roger and out.time for bedddd.zzzzzzzzzzzzz.
reminiscing my old memories.thats why i wrote this entry.like everybody else,i've had experiences with ily's.still living.still learning. =)
Saturday, June 12, 2010
three aye em
at home now.arrived at 3.30pm yesterday.i've been home for only 12hours and i already spent seven hours of it sleeping.the long drive was so tiring.not to mention HOT (the air cond in my car consists of ten ants blowing hard on my face).i didnt have any energy to do anything else,not even to unload stuff out of my car (i have reduced the stuff i brought to Bangi to a bare minimum!).the headache i had caused me to sleep so much.better that than spending the whole night popping pills trying to make my head work right?
the first thing i noticed when i arrived home is the weather.compared to bangi,i think manjung is ten times hotter and drier.at least it rains every evening in bangi.orang bangi dapat lebih rahmat dari orang manjung.
and so starts my two weeks plus holiday.i want to spend time at home as much as i can.i plan to do nothing in particular this holiday.i would try to gain as much knowledge as i can in household skills.one thing for sure,i would master sleeping and waking up late in no time.typical nini.bwahahah.i also intend to make some time for my school friends.i haven't seen them in a while.
i had a great special semester.thank you everyone especially nazrin,daus and dee.cant wait for the exam results to be released.this is our one chance of getting on the deans list!hahaha.
roger and out.back to watching tv.
nowplaying :Give Me A Sign by Breaking Benjamin
the first thing i noticed when i arrived home is the weather.compared to bangi,i think manjung is ten times hotter and drier.at least it rains every evening in bangi.orang bangi dapat lebih rahmat dari orang manjung.
and so starts my two weeks plus holiday.i want to spend time at home as much as i can.i plan to do nothing in particular this holiday.i would try to gain as much knowledge as i can in household skills.one thing for sure,i would master sleeping and waking up late in no time.typical nini.bwahahah.i also intend to make some time for my school friends.i haven't seen them in a while.
i had a great special semester.thank you everyone especially nazrin,daus and dee.cant wait for the exam results to be released.this is our one chance of getting on the deans list!hahaha.
roger and out.back to watching tv.
nowplaying :Give Me A Sign by Breaking Benjamin
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
bubbles.
when u get bored of studying,u start finding other things to do,especially if ur the kind of person who cant sit still like me.as for me,i usually opt for standing up from my sitting position and belt a song out loud while doing matching dance routines.haha.well.not tonight guys.tonight,i opt for playing bubbles with ida!if ur thinking of bubble baths,think again.remember these?
u can get a tube of the liquid slash solid thing along with its blower for 50cents a pop!blow away till u get a bubble.so cheap yet so fun to play with.the last time i played this was back in grade 3 i think.ahh memories.hehe.wish i would stop growing now and never be an adult.
roger and out.need to continue studying.thank you BM for ruining my night.
note : there's always a kid in me! ;)
u can get a tube of the liquid slash solid thing along with its blower for 50cents a pop!blow away till u get a bubble.so cheap yet so fun to play with.the last time i played this was back in grade 3 i think.ahh memories.hehe.wish i would stop growing now and never be an adult.roger and out.need to continue studying.thank you BM for ruining my night.
note : there's always a kid in me! ;)
Monday, June 7, 2010
midnight.
i have a bunch of lecture notes to read due tuesday.haven't started reading a single thing yet.ahh well.i only have one paper to sit for.BM.how hard could it be?see how im taking things for granted?such a bad habit.will only start studying tomorrow.i am in NO MOOD to study now.very relaxed and chilled out.i wish it was like this every semester.i wouldnt have to go thru the trouble of staying up late,getting super tired and falling asleep under the desk in the MPP room like last semester.haha.whatever it is,i'll be back in Manjung by thursday.cant wait to go home.i have this need of spending as much time as possible with mom and baba.dunno why.i guess i miss them a lot.
roger and out.time for bed.
tiba-tiba terigt..dulu awak pernah cakap kat saya..mama selalu cakap kat awak yang if anything happens,let bygones be bygones.berguna nasihat tu.thank you. =)
roger and out.time for bed.
tiba-tiba terigt..dulu awak pernah cakap kat saya..mama selalu cakap kat awak yang if anything happens,let bygones be bygones.berguna nasihat tu.thank you. =)
Sunday, June 6, 2010
a song for you.
this is for the good times and the bad times.for every piece of memory that ever exist.for things spoken or left unspoken.this is for you.
Lost in You by Three Days Grace
"I always knew that you'd come back to get me
And you always knew that it wouldn't be easy
To go back to the start to see where it all began
Or end up at the bottom to watch how it all ends
You tried to lie and say I was everything
I remember when I said "I'm nothing without you"
I'm nothing without you
Somehow I found a way to get lost in you
Let me inside
Let me get close to you
Change your mind
I'll get lost if you want me to
Somehow I found a way to get lost in you
You always thought that I left myself open
But you didn't know I was already broken
I told myself that it wouldn't be so bad
But pulling away it took everything I had
You tried to lie and say I was everything
I remember when I said "I'm nothing without you"
I'm nothing without you
Somehow I found a way to get lost in you
Let me inside
Let me get close to you
Change your mind
I'll get lost if you want me to
Somehow I found a way to get lost in you
In you
Hey now fear the rise and the fall
I see evil in you
Now everyday I find myself say
"I want to get lost in you"
I'm nothing without you
Somehow I found a way to get lost in you
Let me inside
Let me get close to you
Change your mind
I'll get lost if you want me to
Somehow I found a way to get lost in you
A way to get lost in you.."
"I always knew that you'd come back to get me
And you always knew that it wouldn't be easy
To go back to the start to see where it all began
Or end up at the bottom to watch how it all ends
You tried to lie and say I was everything
I remember when I said "I'm nothing without you"
I'm nothing without you
Somehow I found a way to get lost in you
Let me inside
Let me get close to you
Change your mind
I'll get lost if you want me to
Somehow I found a way to get lost in you
You always thought that I left myself open
But you didn't know I was already broken
I told myself that it wouldn't be so bad
But pulling away it took everything I had
You tried to lie and say I was everything
I remember when I said "I'm nothing without you"
I'm nothing without you
Somehow I found a way to get lost in you
Let me inside
Let me get close to you
Change your mind
I'll get lost if you want me to
Somehow I found a way to get lost in you
In you
Hey now fear the rise and the fall
I see evil in you
Now everyday I find myself say
"I want to get lost in you"
I'm nothing without you
Somehow I found a way to get lost in you
Let me inside
Let me get close to you
Change your mind
I'll get lost if you want me to
Somehow I found a way to get lost in you
A way to get lost in you.."
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
youth'10
had my previous weekend VERY occupied.had many things going on at once.dance practice on friday,youth'10 on saturday,registration day for JARI studio on sunday and i had to get my individual presentation for BM ready for monday.i had fun,except for the BM part.who the hell likes work?haha.
the highlight of my weekend was getting to meet yat before she went back to splendid india.she was back in our hometown for 3 weeks and i didn't get the chance to meet her then.of course i wouldn't miss it for the world to meet her when i knew she was going to youth'10 too.so on saturday,me and my friends (namely naz,daus,wan,ozair and taufiq) dragged ourselves to the LRT station in Bandar Tasik Selatan and met up with yat there.then off we went to pwtc for the youth'10 event.thank Goodness i didn't drive.finding a parking space would be a hassle.we arrived.walked around here and there.up and down.left and right.and.had absolutely NOTHING to do.however,i did meet a couple of school friends.Razin,Razin's cousin Jufri and Ashleigh.
note to self : u can only go to places like this if u have at least something to do (like play futsal or basketball,go shuffling,graffiti tagging,wait in line to register for the Battle of the Bands) or have lots of money to shop (they sell all kinds of cool stuff at the carnival.cupcakes were sold everywehere!one can only drool.one can only see from far.one has no money.haha.)
they didn't even sell decent food at the carnival (unless u call Starbucks decent).such a bummer right?so we traveled all the way to times square to eat.by the time we went home,my legs were of an athletes.i grew muscles in my calves from walking too much.i got so tired that in my mind,i considered begging someone for a piggy back ride. =.=" im done complaining.thank God yat was there along with my other friends.youth'10 wasn't all that fun.but they made my day absolutely fabulous.hehe.thank you people.bravo.bravo.
our Youth'10 passes
the only group photo with all of us in it
this was supposed to be a photo for the Extra Chewing Gum comp
thank you Haryati Ain. =)
the highlight of my weekend was getting to meet yat before she went back to splendid india.she was back in our hometown for 3 weeks and i didn't get the chance to meet her then.of course i wouldn't miss it for the world to meet her when i knew she was going to youth'10 too.so on saturday,me and my friends (namely naz,daus,wan,ozair and taufiq) dragged ourselves to the LRT station in Bandar Tasik Selatan and met up with yat there.then off we went to pwtc for the youth'10 event.thank Goodness i didn't drive.finding a parking space would be a hassle.we arrived.walked around here and there.up and down.left and right.and.had absolutely NOTHING to do.however,i did meet a couple of school friends.Razin,Razin's cousin Jufri and Ashleigh.
note to self : u can only go to places like this if u have at least something to do (like play futsal or basketball,go shuffling,graffiti tagging,wait in line to register for the Battle of the Bands) or have lots of money to shop (they sell all kinds of cool stuff at the carnival.cupcakes were sold everywehere!one can only drool.one can only see from far.one has no money.haha.)
they didn't even sell decent food at the carnival (unless u call Starbucks decent).such a bummer right?so we traveled all the way to times square to eat.by the time we went home,my legs were of an athletes.i grew muscles in my calves from walking too much.i got so tired that in my mind,i considered begging someone for a piggy back ride. =.=" im done complaining.thank God yat was there along with my other friends.youth'10 wasn't all that fun.but they made my day absolutely fabulous.hehe.thank you people.bravo.bravo.
our Youth'10 passes
the only group photo with all of us in it
this was supposed to be a photo for the Extra Chewing Gum comp
thank you Haryati Ain. =)roger and out!
note : thank you for the phone call yesterday sue.aku rindu rumah.tak sabar nak balik.hehe.
nowplaying : Lost In You by Three Days Grace
note : thank you for the phone call yesterday sue.aku rindu rumah.tak sabar nak balik.hehe.
nowplaying : Lost In You by Three Days Grace
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