final exams.

another four days till my finals start.

hoping that mumny and baba are praying hard for me.

im scared shit.

this is the full exam schedule.

23 oct 2010

power system 1

9am - 12pm

25 oct 2010

control system

2.30pm-5.30pm

26 oct 2010

principle of management

9am - 12pm

technical communication

2.30pm-5.30pm

28 oct 2010

random process

2.30pm-5.30pm

30 oct 2010

microprocessor system

2.30pm-5.30pm

seems like i'll be missing out on lots of fun.

will make it up to myself as soon as my exams end.

roger and out.

10 peraturan bapa kepada teman lelaki anak.

Kepada Bf anak aku,

Peraturan 1: Kalo ko sampai kat pagar umah aku pastu dok hon…hon, pastikan ko bawak barang yang nak dihantar..sebab ko takkan ambik ape2 atau sesapa.

Peraturan 2: Jangan ko pegang2 anak aku depan atau belakang aku. Ko boleh pandang dia, selagi mata ko tak merayau lebih dari paras leher anak aku. Kalo ko takleh jaga tangan ko dari dok pegang2 anak aku..aku boleh tolong cabut dan jaga tangan ko kat umah..

Peraturan 3: Aku tau skang nih fesyen budak2 pakai seluar londeh sampai nampak boxer atau spender ko. Aku ni open-minded, so aku takkan suruh ko pakai seluar tu elok2 cam manusia normal. Tapi, bagi memastikan yang seluar ko takkan terbukak atau dibukak semasa ber’dating’ ngan anak aku, aku akan pakai stapler gun kat dalam laci aku nih untuk lekatkan seluar ko kat pinggang.

Peraturan 4: Aku rasa mesti ko tau pasal kempen seks ‘selamat’ yang omputih dok canang hari2 kat tv atau internet. Kalo tak pakai perlindungan cam kondom atau lain2, ko mungkin akan dapat penyakit yang mungkin membunuh ko satu hari nanti. Meh sini aku nak bagitau, kalo ngan anak aku ni, aku lah pelindung tuh..dan aku akan mendatangkan sakit kat tubuh badan ko dan kemungkinan besar akan bunuh ko jugak. Paham?

Peraturan 5: Biasalah kalo ko nak berkenalan lebih baik ngan aku ni sebagai calon bapak mertua ko..ko nak berbual pasal politik, pasal sukan atau lain2 topik semasa. Aku takmo dengar semua tuh. Satu jer topik yang aku minat nak dengar: bila ko nak antar anak aku balik ke umah ni semula? Dan jawapan yang aku nak dengar cuma: “Awal.”

Peraturan 6: Aku rasa ko ni hensem, popular kat kolej/pejabat ko, banyak peluang nak dating ngan aweks2 lain yang lagi kiut-miut..aku takde hal ngan kelebihan ko tu..selagi anak aku pon ok dengan kepopularan ko. Tapi, sekali ko dah couple ngan anak aku, ko jangan pandai2 cari pompuan lain sampai la anak aku dah bosan ngan ko atau dia break-off ngan ko. Kalo ko wat anak aku nangis, aku pulak akan wat ko nangis.

Peraturan 7: Sementara ko menunggu anak aku bersiap, jangan dok mengeluh kalo dia bersiap lama sangat. Kalo ko nak orang yang punctual, ko leh dating ngan mat askar. Kalo ko bosan menunggu kat luar tu, tolong le wat ape yang patut, cam basuh keta aku atau cat pagar umah aku ni.

Peraturan 8: Tempat2 berikut adalah dilarang sama sekali korang pergi dating; tempat yang ada katil, ada sofa, ada rumput atau apa2 tempat yang leh duduk2 atau baring2. tempat2 yang takde kehadiran orang tua, polis, tok imam. Tempat2 yang gelap. Tempat2 yang membolehkan korang berpegang tangan/menari atau bersukaria. Tempat2 yang panas sampai membuatkan anak aku terpaksa pakai tshirt takde lengan..pakai short skirt. Tempat yang sejuk sampai ko kena panaskan badan anak aku. Movie yang romantic, berunsurkan cium2 tu elakkan. Movie pasal seksa kubur atau hari kiamat dibolehkan.

Peraturan 9: Jangan sekali-kali menipu aku. Aku ni nampak jer perut buncit, kepala hampir botak, tapi aku akan tau semua pergerakan ko dari spy2 aku. Kalo aku tanya ko nak pegi mana, dengan sapa lagi yang join ngan korang, ko ada satu peluang jer nak jawab dengan benar, tiada yang tak benar melainkan benar belaka. Aku ada satu senapang patah, satu cangkul dan lima ekar tanah yang penuh hutan kat belakang umah aku ni. Selalunya aku dok menembak khinzir kat situ. Kalo aku tembak kepala ko kat belakang tu, takde sapa yang nak tanye. Jangan main2 ngan aku.

Peraturan 10: Ko patut takut ngan aku ni..kalo boleh biar sampai sangat2 takut. Aku ni dok teringat2 lagi peristiwa bukit kepong. Sampai skang kalo ada orang datang umah senyap2 pastu dok berbual kat laman aku nak tembak..aku ingatkan komunis. Nanti dah abih dating, sampai kat pintu pagar, bukak pintu kereta dan angkat dua2 tangan ko tinggi2. Cakap dengan jelas “saya datang antar anak pakcik”. Pastu terus blah. Tak payah masuk minum teh. Kilauan matahari yang ko nampak kat tingkap umah aku ni ialah teropong senapang sniper aku.

Sekian, Yg sengaja menakutkan, Bapak Kepada Gf ko.

pesan mummy.

i miss mummy and baba everday.

but today i miss them more than usual.

maybe cuz i'm nervous bout my presentation tomorrow.

and also a few problems on the side.

teringat pesan mummy.

find friends who make you happy and not friends who constantly hurt u.

well mum.

up until now,i have mostly found the latter.

the first kind are hard to find nowadays.

there are only a few.

i know u would be disappointed if u knew that

the person u always speak highly of

is my main source of pain.

i may be the problem too,no doubt.

kadang-kadang rasa nak give up.

but then i'll remember mom's next advice.

jangan cepat mengalah dan mengeluh.

Allah tak suka orang yang macam tu.

well mum.

there's nothing i wanna do right now

except be at home

and watch sappy korean dramas with you.

and go have late night teh tariks with baba.

that way i wouldn't have to sigh or give up on anything.

kalau mummy and baba takde macam mana ?

i have only myself to depend on.

orang yang disangka boleh harap

tak boleh diharap langsung rupanya.

hahaha.

roger and out.

note: that's why i said,when u hurt me,u hurt my family as well especially mom.

The One That Got Away by Katy Perry

"Summer after high school when we first met

We make out in your Mustang to Radiohead

And on my 18th Birthday

We got matching tattoos

Used to steal your parents' liquor

And climb to the roof

Talk about our future

like we had a clue

Never plan that one day

I'd be losing you

And in another life

I would be your girl

We keep all our promises

Its us against the world

And in other life

I would make you stay

So I don't have to say

You were the one that got away

The one that got away

I was June and you were my Johnny Cash

Never one we got the other We made a pact

Sometimes when i miss you

I put those records on

Someone said you had your tattoo removed

Saw you downtown singing the blues

Its time to face the music

Im no longer your muse

And in another life

I would be your girl

We keep all our promises

Its us against the world

And in another life

I would make you stay

So I don't have to say

You were the one that got away

the one that got away

The one o o o o (X3)

The one that got away

All these money can't buy me a time machine (No o o o)

Can't replace you with a million rings (No o o o)

Shoulda told you what you meant to me (WO o o o)

Cause now i pay the price

And in another life

I would be your girl

We keep all our promises

Its us against the world

And in another life

I would make you stay

So I don't have to say

You were the one that got away

The one that got away

The one o o o o (X3)

And in another life

I would make you stay

So I don't have to say

You were the one that got away

The one that got away"

SPOT THE NINI AND NINA.

find us and i'll give u a candy.hehe.this was taken way back in 1995.i was six and had started pre schooling in Seisen kindergarten.this was taken during a Merdeka Celebration in the Embassy of Malaysia,Tokyo.we did a dance number first (dikir barat i think) and then a fashion show afterwards (i was Cik Siti Wan Kembang).most of my friends in this photo have come back to Malaysia.some has gotten married even.

this second one down here,i didn't even know that this picture even exists till someone uploaded it on facebook.i don't remember where it was taken,when or why.but sure as hell i'm in it.my guess is that we were on a trip to a school, Higashiyama which was somewhere near our apartment.clue for this one : i'm the second shortest and kak nina in red, looking murderous.hahahah.

good memories.spent three wonderful years of my life staying there.how i wished i stayed longer.banyak kenangan yang sangat indah.when i was four,i remember asking my mom while we were still there, "please can we stay here forever ?" and my mom answered yes.i guess she wasn't in the mood to entertain my question.but how i wish it really was forever.don't get me wrong.i love malaysia too ! except that this country is run by corrupted people.haha.one day when i have lots of money and when it's the right time,i'm gonna go back there and see my old house and school.it's not even my country but hey,i miss that place.u know how when ur a kid,there'll be a starting point where u start remembering things ? my starting point was back when i was there.

roger and out.more work.booooring.boohoo.

future.

this morning i had my subject registration.my time slot was scheduled to be at 10.10am.i was all set in front of the laptop 20 minutes before it even started.in my college or anywhere else perhaps,registering for something online is like going to war.u need to be speedy in order to get places, good lecturers and not-too-early classes.it's like a life or death situation.its dead serious i tell u.hahah.then came 10.10am.i registered without any hitches.i managed to register for all the classes that i wanted.thank Allah for that.however,i forgot i had to pick my two electives apart from registering my timetable.it took me a very long time to decide what to take as my electives.if i make the wrong choice,i'm scared i won't be able to keep up or fail.after much thinking,i registered for 1. artificial intelligence and neural fuzzy systems (my sister said this is an interesting subject) 2. computer architecture (i registered this with the hopes that ker0 can teach me if i was shitty in it.tolong ye gemuk ? hahah.).another three electives will be decided much later.can't believe i'm almost a senior already.damn i feel old.hahahah.

help.my MASSIVE pile of workload is still there.it's like an annoying mole at the edge of my nose ! i just wanna rip it out.but there is no darn way to remove it except to live with it.

roger and out.dating.i must away !

Have Faith In Me by A Day To Remember

"Have faith in me, cause there are things that I've seen I don't believe.

So cling to what you know and never let go.

You should know things aren't always what they seem.

I said I'd never let you go and I never did.

I said I'd never let you fall and I always meant it.

If you didn't have a chance then I never did.

You'll always find me right there again.

I've gone crazy, cause there are things in the streets I don't believe.

So we'll pretend it's alright (pretend it's alright!)

and stay in for the night, what a world.

I'll keep you safe here with me (with me!).

I said I'd never let you go and I never did.

I said I'd never let you fall and I always meant it.

If you didn't have a chance then I never did.

You'll always find me right there again.

I said I'd never let you go and I never did.

I said I'd never let you fall and I always meant it.

If you didn't have a chance then I never did.

You'll always find me right there again.

They've got me on the outside looking in,

but i can't see at all with the weight of the world on my shoulders.

They just wanna see me fall.

They've got me on the outside looking in,

but i can't see at all with the weight of the world on my shoulders.

They just wanna see me fall.

Have faith in me.

I said I'd never let you go and I never did.

I said I'd never let you fall and I always meant it.

If you didn't have a chance then I never did.

You'll always find me right there again.

I said I'd never let you go and I never did.

I said I'd never let you fall and I always meant it.

If you didn't have a chance then I never did.

You'll always find me right there again.

I said I'd never let you go and I never did.

I said I'd never let you go and I never did.

I said I'd never let you go and I never did.

I said I'd never let you go and I never did.."