two thousand and eleven Raya.

raya last year,this year or any other year was,is and will always be pretty much the same to me.

nothing new.

but still,

i enjoy celebrating it.

our family goes through the usual routine every single year.

that hectic first day of raya.

family and friends came to visit.

bonds were strengthened.

i ate a lot.

like seriously, A LOT.

and all that other stuff.

ya know,the usual.

haha.

click photos to enlarge.

sister and best friend !

kumpulan nasyid A9 Fasa 1D1

 buah hati.

 mulut syamil penuh makanan.

 for girls,camwhoring is a necessity.

 7 year old sofiyyah ; how time flies.

wina and kamilia tgh makan.syamil merajuk.syawqi muka bosan.sofiyyah & syukri gaduh berebut tempat duduk.sakinah meleraikan pergaduhan.mummy pening kepala. ; candid.HAHAH.

 TADA ! ; the result after all the havoc.

3 year old wina ; the middle.

 abang polis and co.

mummy & baba after 39 years of marriage, Alhamdulillah.

 2nd sister's children.

 kung fu ; aktiviti mereka setelah ber"maaf zahir batin" sesama mereka.back to more fights.

 my two sayangs.

a failed attempt to console this boy led to this photo ; 6 year old syamil yang SANGAT kuat merajuk.HAHAHAHA.

 proud grandparents to the latest addition to the Razali family, 17 day old Ranea

 kak Nisa !

Rayyan is such a doll ! he's Kak Nisa's nephew.and the one holding him is my brother in law.

 post kung fu activity.

this is Hasif, another one of Kak Nisa's nephew.doll too !

ini bukan lakonan ye kawan-kawan.i spent the night playing chef. :))

benda lain aku tak pandang.aku pandang kambing je.KAMBING.

 my childhood/best friend since i was 7.we've been friends for fifteen long years !

 jemput makan.

answered prayers.

Muslims are very blessed.

if there is anything troubling their minds,

hanya perlu angkat tangan dan doa kepada Allah s.w.t.

insyaAllah,He will answer those doa.

it's only a matter of time.

with everything happening around me right now,

i kind of wonder..

is Allah answering some of my prayers ?

maybe.
nampak macam jauh.
tapi sebenarnya taklah jauh sangat.

:)

si comel dari sarawak.

buah hati saya.haven't seen him for so long.rriiiiiinnndduuuuuuuuu sangat. :)

Sushi King !

another MAJOR improvement to my humble hometown. 

sushi king !

lepas ni lebih bersemangat untuk balik rumah 

boleh makan sushi sedap.

:D

praying to be next in line : Subway,Dominos

yummy !

Ranea :)

dulu saya ada 9 buah hati.

as of 14th august 2010,

 saya ada sepuluh buah hati.

Ranea is the tenth.

i pray so that all my buah hati 

grow up to be successful,religious people who are close to Allah SWT and their families

dan disenangi semua orang.

amin.

hello ! my name is Ranea.nice to meet you. :D

saya kuat tidur macam mummy saya.hehe.

getting all cozy in tok wan's arms.

my shoes.not yours.

apa anda akan buat jika

seorang rakan mengajak anda membuat dosa ?

contohnya,

"hey man here are some heroine.go on eat em.it'll make u feel like ur in heaven.no one has to know"

inside your brain,

you'll be all like

alamak kalau aku buat ni BESAR dosa dia. 

so you politely decline.

but then,

that friend of yours is a person who gets this thing call dosa/pahala.

but chooses to ignore it.

so when you decline,

this friend takes it personally.

dia memang terasa gila.

he won't even reply your texts or talk to you.

so what would you do now ?

still fikir dosa/pahala or follow your friend ?
that's out of the question really.
any person who cares about sin and what not
would always fikir pasal dosa/pahala dalam apa-apa yang dia buat.
so what should we do when it comes to situations with friends like this ?
pening kepala woi.

what i wear to work.

di tempat kerja,saya memakai baju teletubbies.

the white thing on my head is a face mask.bukan  helmet kontot ye kawan-kawan.

Bousted Naval Shipyard ; on my way to board KD Laksamana Tun Abdul Jamil.

If You Ever Come Back by The Script

If your standing with your suitcase

But you cant step on the train

Everything the way that you left it I still haven’t slept yet

And if your covering your face now

But you just cant hide the pain

Still setting two plates on the counter but eating without cha

If the truth is your a liar, then just say that your ok

I’m sleepin’ on your side of the bed goin’ out of my head now

And if your out there tryin move on

But something pulls you back again

I’m sitting here tryin persuade you like your in the same room

And I wish you could give me the cold shoulder

And I wish you could still give me a hard time

And I wish I could still wish it was over

But even if wishing is a waste of time

even if I never cross your mind

I’ll leave the door is on the latch

If you ever come back, if you ever come back

They’ll be a light in the hall and the key under the mat

If you ever come back

They’ll be a smile on my face and the kettle on

And it will be just like you were never gone

They’ll be a light in the hall and the key under the mat

If you ever come back if you ever come back now

Oh if you ever come back if you ever come back now

Now they say Im wastin my time

Cause your never comin home

But they used to say the world was flat but how wrong was that now

And by leavin my door open I’m milkin everythin I own

Somethin I can lose in the breakin that you haven’t taken

And I wish you could give me the cold shoulder

And I wish you can still give me a hard time

And I wish I could still wish it was over

But even if wishing is a waste of time

Even if I never cross your mind

I’ll leave the door on the latch if you ever come back

If you ever come back

They’ll be a light in the hall and the key under the mat

If you ever come back

They’ll be a smile on my face and the kettle on

And it will be just like you were never gone

They’ll be a light in the hall and the key under the mat

If you ever come back, if you ever come back now

If you ever come back if you ever come back now

If it’s the fighting you remember or the little things you miss

I know your out there somewhere so just remember this

If it’s the fighting you remember or the little things you miss

Oh just remember this, oh just remember this

Ill leave the door on the latch

If you ever come back if you ever come back

They’ll be a light in the hall and the key under the mat

If you ever come back anekatips

They’ll be a smile on my face and the kettle on

And it will be just like you were never gone

They’ll be a light in the hall and the key under the mat

If you ever come back if you ever come back now

If you ever come back if you ever come back now

And it will be just like you were never gone

If you ever come back if you ever come back now

why ?

some of you may wonder why i don't upload pictures or say much (comments excluded) on facebook.

instead i upload and post them here.

the reason for me not doing so ? simple.

i don't wanna information overload anyone.

ya know.

just in case my posts become an eyesore to people.

so if you wanna see em,come here.

if you don't,then scram.

storage room.

electrical storage room.

located underneath the Control and Automation workshop in MTU.

the place where thermocouples,sensors,transmitters,gauges,junction boxes,cables and so many other things are kept.

a room that contains so many sweet memories.

there was one time i was assigned to wire KD Laksamana Muhammad Amin's junction box.

aku angkut junction box yang berat dan besar gedabak tu dari workshop

dan turun kat sini

only 'cause i wanted some peace.

then Abg Lan came in and fixed this really ancient jukebox

 so that i could listen to it and wouldn't feel so bored.

Abg Lan, always so kind to me.

on my last day of internship,

i sat in here with Abg Lan and Abg Muz all day long

taping junction boxes for KD Laksamana Tun Abdul Jamil.

i was feeling really sad cuz it was my last day

but they didn't let me.

we talked and laughed and talked and laughed.

it felt like forever.

rak-rak tu la yang aku duk panjat-panjat cari gauge dan benda-benda lain.

sorting out cables.

cari spare part baru.

lepak-lepak baca surat khabar.

intai celah tingkap tengok Abg Lan duk pekena Encik Mokhtar dengan bukak tutup pressure pipe pastu gelak-gelak sembunyi balik dinding sebab takut kantoi dengan Encik Mokhtar.

hahahaha.

dan yang paling penting,

CARMA.
:))

i would repeat the three months i was in MTU if i could.

fourteenth.

14th august 2011.

a truly eventful day for my whole family.

here's a summary of what happened.

malas aku nak cerita panjang-panjang.

morning : Kak Nina was carted off into the labor room to standby for delivery.

noon : we got the call saying Pak Long passed away.my whole family went to Penang except me and mum.we stayed to wait for Kak Nina.

5.37pm : baby Ranea was born ! what upset me the most was the fact that Kak Nina was alone during labor (no one is allowed inside the labor room except the husband.not even the patient's mother.yes that's what you get with government hospitals.).that and the fact that the doctor or nurses didn't inform me the baby was already born.aku yang kt luar ni tunggu sampai kematu bontot macam orang bodoh.i didn't know till later that night.went to visit Kak Nina after maghrib tengok-tengok perut dia dah kempis. =.="

by the end of this day,i was emotionally drained.

sad for Pak Long.

like i said in my previous previous post,the day of my birthday was the last time i saw him.lepas ni takkan jumpa dah sampai bila-bila.ya Allah. :'(

happy for Ranea.

mainly because i am going to live with her and i get to gomol her everyday and she was born a day after my birthday so for the rest of our lives we get to share a cake together ! saya nak curik sume cake dia ! :D

Allah SWT bagi banyak dugaan pada hari ni.

thirteenth.

13th August 2011.

the day i turned twenty two (arrgghh I AM OLD!).

i expected nothing from anyone.

but i got more than i bargained for.

THANK YOU for all the birthday wishes.

i can't express how much i appreciate it !

:)

so what did i do on my birthday ?

at around 11am,i traveled to Penang.

why ?

to visit Pak Long.

the last time i saw Pak Long i can't remember when exactly,

but it was last year.

that was when he was first diagnosed with intestine cancer

and had just undergone surgery to remove the cancerous part of his intestines.

all the while,

 i've known my uncle (mummy's elder brother) as this healthy,joyful person.

always crackin jokes and telling stories,

at times he would put on this serious manner 

and we'd all be like "okay takut.hehe."

but yeah he's my uncle yang agak rapat.

even though i seldom meet him,i love him all the same.

when i arrived and laid my eyes on him,

i felt like i was meeting a stranger.

there was Pak Long.

but physically he just wasn't Pak Long.

kurus sangat.

he couldn't do anything except lie down.

he couldn't eat or speak.

all he could do was moan.

in my head,he's always this healthy and strong man.

so it broke my heart seeing him.

my heart ached so bad.

hancur gila hati tengok Pak Long.

cancer took his physique away.

we stayed at Pak Long's house for a few hours.

there,i got to meet all my relatives from mummy's Kelantan side.

the ones that i've met and never met before.

when it was time to go home,

i kissed Pak Long's forehead,shook his hands and told him Pak Long Nini nak balik dah ni.

i knew he could hear me.

i knew he wouldn't reply.

i just wanted him to know i was there.

who knew that was the last time i would get to see and hold him ?

all in all i can say that it was my worst birthday so far.

That's When I Love You by Aslyn

to my future husband who i hope will love me no matter what.

When u have to look away

When u don't have much to say

That's when I love u

I love u just that way

To hear u stumble when u speak

Or see u walk with two left feet

That's when I love you

I love u endlessly

And when your mad cause u lost the game

Forget I'm waiting in the rain

Baby I love u

I love u anyway

Cause here's my promise made tonight

U can count on me 4 life

Cause that's when I love u

When nothing u do can change my mind

The more I learn the more I love

The more my heart can't get enough

That's when I love u

When I love u

No matter what

So when u turn to hide your eyes

Cause the movie it made u cry

That's when I love u

I love u

A little more each time

And when u can't quite match you clothes

Or when u laugh at your own jokes

that's when I love u I love u

More then u know

And when u forgot that we had a date

Or that look that u give when u show up late

Baby I love u ,I love u anyway

So here's my promise made tonight

U can count on me 4 life

Cause that's when I love u

When nothing u do can change my moind

The more I learn the more I love

The more my heart can't get enough

That's when I love u

When I love u

No matter what

Ohh that's when I love u when nothing baby, nothing u do could change my mind

The more I learn, the more I love, the more my heart can't get enough

That's when I love u , when I love u no matter what

Ohhhh no matter what

bothered.

when our eyes met for a second back there,

i thought things were back to the way it was.

oh how i miss that sweet smile.

oh how i miss all the beautiful memories we shared.

oh how i miss our late night conversations.

oh how i miss everything about you.

oh how i miss everything about us.

your favorite perfume.

your favorite song.

in the car when you play your favorite cd,

and we hum along.

i'd do anything just to hear you say i love you.

come hell or high water,

there will always be a place for you 

tucked neatly inside my heart.

all this while,

i kinda forgot that those feelings exist.

that was until

our eyes met for a second back there.

p.s : our paths aren't meant to cross now.who knows it might cross in the future ? we never know.my heart still beats the same way it does every time i see you.never stopped loving you.it's your attitude i stopped falling in love with.sorry tak tegur tadi.sangat segan.huhuh. >.<

things i kill.

currently killing time at Restaurant Jejantas Sungai Buloh.

on my way to KL to spend the weekend with my brother and currently pregnant sister.

thank God for the invention of USB broadband.

at least i'm occupied for the next two hours.

lately my patience and iman have been tested a lot.

iman dalam hati ni takdelah banyak mana.

Allah uji pula lagi.

i don't know how much longer i can hold on.

may Allah protect me.

Amin.

Ramadhan stereotype thinking.

oh so only during the fasting month you stop doing bad stuff ?

come on man.

that's where you're wrong.

you're not supposed to do bad stuff all year long

no matter what month it is.

different people have different views.

you don't have to go all Einstein on everything.
you don't have to be so up front about everything.

learn to respect other people's feelings.

or learn to convey your messages by picking the right words instead of acting like a total know it all.

if you can't do either,

learn to shut up.

The Kids From Yesterday by My Chemical Romance

Well now this could be the last of all the rides we take
So hold on tight and don't look back
We don't care about the message or the rules they make
I'll find you when the sun goes black

And you only live forever in the lights you make
When we were young we used to say
That you only hear the music when your heart begins to break
Now we are the kids from yesterday

All the cameras watch the accidents and stars you hate
They only care if you can bleed
Does the television make you feel the pills you ate?
Or every person that you need to be

Cause you only live forever in the lights you make
When we were young we used to say
That you only hear the music when your heart begins to break
Now we are the kids from yesterday

Today, today
We are the kids from yesterday
Today, today

Here we are and we won't stop breathing
Yell it out 'til your heart stops beating

We are the kids from yesterday
Today

Cause you only live forever in the lights you make
When we were young we used to say
That you only hear the music when your heart begins to break
Now we are the kids from yesterday
We are the kids from yesterday
We are the kids from yesterday
We are the kids from yesterday
Today, today

dosa pahala.

setengah orang tak paham maksud dosa pahala.

sometimes it's not that they don't understand.

they understand but choose to push it aside.

it's hard to deal with these kind of people.

especially when you have different views on what dosa and pahala is

and whether you choose to live your life based on it or not.
i'm kind of disappointed because it seems that me and this particular person have totally different views on this matter.
:(