Step Up 3.

I have been craving salted popcorn for a few weeks.so last friday we went to cineleisure damansara to satisfy my taste buds.of course it came with a movie.we watched Step Up 3.it was totally uncalled for.wanted to watch something else but ended up watching that.anyway,dancers would LOVE the movie.everything the dancers in Step Up 3 said about dancing in the introduction of the movie is absolutely true.dancing lets you be someone else,dancing sets you free etc etc.even though the storyline sucks (because it was so darn cliche i almost puked in my barrel of popcorn),every other aspect of the movie seemed okay to me.the tagline (Born From The Boombox).the choreography.the costumes.and the shoes.the shoes were all AWESOME.watching this movie made me want to own every single high cut shoes in the market.Nike Dunks and Supras especially.after all instead of heels,khk said that im more of a sneaker girl.imagine wearing these with skinnies.nice.heheh.

Girls.

i found this on my friend's facebook status.i liked what i read.so here i am posting it.untungnya jadi wanita solehah.they don't worry about makeup,clothes,hairdos or boys.they only care about Allah s.w.t and the most essential things in life like being a good wife or studying hard to get a great job.good things often and will always come their way.they are very lucky to be born in such a way and i envy them for it.how i wish i one of them too.

"Wahai wanita solehah,jangan risau akan jodohmu kerana muslimin yg bijaksana takkan terpaut pada wanita hanya kepada kecantikan, lirikan senyuman, pada bicara manja dan menggoda atau pada pujuk rayu seorg wanita yg meruntuhkan imannya. Telah tercatat seungkap nama lelaki di Luh Mahfuz untukmu. Cuma peribadinya ditentukan oleh sejauh mana ketinggian peribadimu. Jika kau tetap di atas jalan yang di redhai-Nya, InsyaAllah si dia turut di jalan yang sama.."

Teenage Dream by Katy Perry

WARNING: this may sound creepy.so think twice before reading. *beep beep.lesbo alert*

i used to have a love-hate relationship with this girl.mainly because my significant other uses her to make me jealous.he is a VERY BIG FAN of hers.she's his wallpaper and his ringtone.he makes me cringe every time i hear him mention her name.i couldn't listen to her songs or look at her pictures because it made me jealous.but starting from today,everything has changed. now she's my wallpaper.i can't get enough of her.she makes me smile when i see her smile.i want to have my own Russell Brand (found it!) like her.i've been googling and ogling looking at her pictures.i have been listening to her songs all day long.i can't get enough of her.help ! its so bad that it gets up to a point where i'm even considering getting a bop,dying my hair electric blue and wearing latex suits everywhere i go ! and the fact that she wrote this song for Russell Brand is just so...sweet ! why the sudden change ? well mainly because her new album ROCKS \m/ and also,after watching her perform live at World Stage i was like..okay this chick is SUPER cute (despite her vocal quality not being a perfect ten out of ten) ! finally now i can say with all my heart that I LOVE YOU KATY PERRY ! =D

You think I'm pretty
Without any makeup on
You think I'm funny
When I tell the punchline wrong
I know you get me
So I let my walls come down, down

Before you met me
I was a wreck but things
Were kinda heavy
You brought me to life
Now every February
You'll be my Valentine, Valentine

Let's go all the way tonight
No regrets, just love
We can dance, until we die
You and I, will be young forever

You make me feel
Like I'm livin' a
Teenage dream
The way you turn me on
I can't sleep
Let's run away and
Don't ever look back,
Don't ever look back

My heart stops
When you look at me
Just one touch
Now baby I believe
This is real
So take a chance and
Don't ever look back,
Don't ever look back

We drove to Cali
And got drunk on the beach
Got a motel and
Built a fort out of sheets
I finally found you
My missing puzzle piece
I'm complete

Let's go all the way tonight
No regrets, just love
We can dance, until we die
You and I, will be young forever

You make me feel
Like I'm livin' a
Teenage dream

The way you turn me on
I can't sleep
Let's run away and
Don't ever look back,
Don't ever look back

My heart stops
When you look at me
Just one touch
Now baby I believe
This is real
So take a chance and
Don't ever look back,
Don't ever look back

I'mma get your heart racing
In my skin tights jeans
Be your teenage dream tonight
Let you put your hands on me
In my skin tight jeans
Be your teenage dream tonight


Yoooouuu
You make me feel
Like I'm livin' a
Teenage dream
The way you turn me on
I can't sleep
Let's run away and
Don't ever look back,
Don't ever look back
No

My heart stops
When you look at me
Just one touch
Now baby I believe
This is real
So take a chance and
Don't ever look back,
Don't ever look back

I'mma get your heart racing
In my skin tights jeans
Be your teenage dream tonight
Let you put your hands on me
In my skin tight jeans
Be your teenage dream tonight
(Tonight, tonight, tonight, tonight, tonight, tonight)

roger and out.work.as usual.

note : have just added Katy Perry/Russell Brand to my sweetest celebrity couple list.but they still cant beat my two rockers Pink/Carey Hart. ;)

Work,Work,Work.

this week is all work and no play (i still have so much time for facebook,twitter etc etc etc though.haha).the words quizzes,assignments and tests make me want to curl up into a ball and die.as soon as i see these words,my body temperature shoots to a hundred degrees and my heart jumps a mile high to my throat.i get sick.no fun at all.i can't imagine working.at least during my college years,i can take breaks whenever i want to.once i start my career life,i wont be able to take breaks anymore.is there a parallel universe somewhere out there where work cease to exist ? i would pack my bags,hop on a spaceship and go live there for eternity,eating nothing but candy canes,cupcakes and lollipops,riding the swings and see saw all day long.

i sat for my management test just now.i think i did quite badly.i got all the terms mixed up.apparently in this subject,everything means the same to me.to be frank.i HATE principles of management and technical communication.i have no skills whatsoever in subjects like these where tons of presentations,group reports and research are involved.i especially hate individual presentations ! to top things off,i lost my ability to memorize an entire textbook (that was back in form 5 when i took biology and yes.only in my dreams i memorized the whole text book.ingat aku pinky and the brain ke nak hafal satu buku?) when i took engineering as my major.instead of memorizing,engineering requires lots of counting.count this.count that.count heat transfer.count torque.count signal.count electricity charge.count current.count voltage.count.count count.count.count..zzzzzzZZZZZzzz.so now,i have an increased amount of respect for students who take business subjects/courses and can still graduate with flying colors.tabik spring aa kat korang.now im wondering.how am i supposed to pursue my masters degree in engineering management (if i ever want to) since i hate business subjects so much ? no need for a masters degree then.duk umah tidur je la.hahaha.

roger and out.i want to eat until i pass out.thank you.

note : i have trouble remembering things.so what i do now is keep post-its within reach so that i can jot down important things that people tell me.i am SUCH a nerd.okay.that was a not-so-fun fact about the Ninnies.no one gives a damn really.haha.

double note : now i understand why we're keeping this to ourselves.thank you for making me understand.thank you for watching over me.thank you for the never-ending advices. =)

Lil Miss Obsessive by Ashlee Simpson.

this is a public apology for Khairul Hilmi Khalil.i've known you all through high school till now,i should know you better than anyone else.but it seems that i don't know who you are at all.sorry for making all the wrong assumptions.everything i said was out of bounds.you don't deserve it at all.i guess its time i learn to trust and respect you more.

"Woah, woah, woah (that side of your bed is still mine)

Am I the reason why you tossed and turned last night?
Everything's such a blur, it didn't come out right.
All of the sudden it's cold and we're falling apart.
No this can't be, please don't leave me alone in the dark.

And I guess we're really over, so come over, I'm not over it.
And I guess we're really over, so come over, I'm not over it.
Late night you make me feel like I'm desperate, I'm not desperate.
Oh, a little bit possessive, little miss obsessive, can't get over it.

Woah, woah, woah (that side of your bed is still mine)

I've never been a fan of long good-byes.
I'm at the finish line and you're just way too far behind.
In the morning I got in a fight with myself, I got the bruises to prove it.
Then I swallowed your words and spit them right back out.

And I guess we're really over, so come over, I'm not over it.
And I guess we're really over, so come over, I'm not over it.
Late night you make me feel like I'm desperate, Aim not desperate.
Oh, a little bit possessive, little miss obsessive, can't get over it.
No!

It's like a fairy tale without a happy ending (happy ending)
But then again maybe we are just pretending.
Why does it have to be so unfair?
Tell me that you care.

And I guess we're really over, but come over, I'm not over it.
And I guess we're really over, so come over, I'm not over it, oh.

Little miss, little miss, little miss, little miss obsessive.

Late night you make me feel like I'm desperate, I'm not desperate.
Oh, a little bit possessive, little miss obsessive, can't get over it

Woah, woah, woah (that side of your bed is still mine).."

thoughts.

1. i have so much work to do.

2. how come i haven't started on anything ?

3. things i learned this week :

• facebook is the worst human creation.gets u addicted.
• maggi on the other hand is the best.tastes good.but fiddles with ur brain.still good.
• if u wanna tell someone something,get into the details.if not,don't mention it at all.i have this GIGANTIC problem with people who do this to me.bila dah meletup and kena marah,baru sibuk nak bagitau.what for ?
• jealousy is not something you fool around with especially when you're trying to patch things up with someone.my advice ? stop doing it to your partner.it hurts your partner and turns your partner into the incredible hulk.you should know your partner well.
• when someone asks something serious,answer seriously.NEVER give stupid slash cynical answers.and explain things before its too late.
• keeping things to yourself is unhealthy especially when you explode at the end of the day.but what if you get a partner who never listens,never consider your thoughts,never takes you seriously and plays around with your feelings ?

4. my body is tiny.but im filled with white hot rage.

5. i need to get a life seriously.

6. i like this gerard way.it rocks. "Be yourself. Don't take anyone's shit.And never let them take you alive" \m/ \m/ \m/

roger and out.heading out to attend Taklimat Pilihanraya MPP.

MTV World Stage 2010

after a few hiccups here and there,i finally managed to get my ass down to Sunway Surf Beach on the 31st of July.i had lots of fun ! listening and watching Tokio Hotel and Katy Perry perform live while dancing and singing along to them was worth all the trouble.the concert started at around 6++pm and ended wayyy after midnight (blame Tokio Hotel for the VERY LENGTHY stage setup.bill and his baju Bezita bak kata dia.hahaha.).i came back soaking wet because we had to watch the concert in the pouring rain.also,i was a bit disappointed by the end of the concert because a certain SOMEONE broke his promise of watching Katy Perry with me ! he ended up straying to the left side of the stage to play with gigantic rubber balloons ! im still not over being disappointed ! =( during the concert,i spy a whole lot of people who needs to go for concert101 (that includes me.teehee).

• concert101 : for you short people out there like me,remember to bring and wear wooden stilts when u attend concerts.opt for the very TALL ones because if u dont,u might suffocate in the sea of human beings.or worse,u might get trampled to death by other tall people.in conditions like this,it sucks being short !
• concert101 : for girls..seriously.there is something wrong with ur brain if u ever decide to wear stilettos to concerts.go for sneaks or flops la ! terjelepok satgi aku gelak je kat tepi.
• concert101 : only if ur daring enough,go shirtless (for dudes) and wear a bikini top (for girls).a whole crowd equals TONNES of heat transfer.but please dont go naked.people might think ur a meathead.
• concert101 : for those with partners,remember to use ur boyfriend/girlfriend as VIP class seats.during the concert,ask him/her to carry u on his/her shoulders.sila gunakan kemudahan yang ada.

roger and out ! beep beep beep ! someone is telling me to go to bed already !

missing in action.

i have been missing in action for a very long time.haven't had much time to update this blog of mine.its starting to collect dust.since i have a lot of time to kill tonight (okay this is a downright lie.i have so much work to do but i am absolutely not in the mood.),an update wouldn't hurt would it ?

my last blog update was in july.picking up things from that point onwards till today, so many things have happened in between.my life probably has taken an unexpected turn yet again,back to a point to where i once started.most people are happy with moving on,but im content enough taking a U turn.at least for now.whatever keeps me happy eyh ? =)

for the record, i am LAZY to post an entry bout my recent trip to terengganu.all i can say is i had fun with my friends even though i came back exhausted, worn out and sort of dizzy due to an entire weekend dedicated to listening to gamelan music ONLY.no offence to my gamelan musician friends,the music is indeed beautiful.but when u listen to it for three days in a row,u tend to go a bit cuckoo.at least for me. T.T

had my birthday last Friday.it was Friday the 13th.horror much ? haha.nothing bad happened on that day.so it proves a point to some people out there who say that Friday the 13th is a day of bad luck.this year's was a low key birthday.nothing special.everyone was busy with tests,quizzes and assignments.i feel like i'm too old for birthday celebrations anyway.hehe.all the same,im VERY thankful for the stream of birthday wishes that came in on that day.i appreciate it very much ! a very GINORMOUS+HUMONGOUS thank yous to those who remembered my birthday (most credit goes to facebook ! hehe.still thankful).and a very special thank you to mummy and khk for the birthday present and for never giving up on me. =) cant believe im twenty one.the last time i checked,i was missing two front teeth.that was when i was seven.now im already growing my wisdom teeth.how time flies.in a very significant way,birthdays make me sad.i dont ever want to grow old.can i be forever young ? at heart and on looks.

tomorrow will be the seventh day of the fasting month.i shall not repeat my mistake today of not getting up for sahur.i spent the entire day today like a zombie.i had no energy to do anything at all.the grass looked like candy.my bed looked like Willy Wonka magically turned it into a chocolate bar.even my fingers looked like chicken McNuggets ! damn la. T.T

roger and out.i need to get a life.seriously.haha.

note : hope its not too late.but Selamat Menyambut Ramadhan to all my friends.jangan korek idung.batal puasa.

Personality Trait.

i have done this before.i have done it yet again.i like this thing.it gives me most accurate picture of what and how i really am,in words.simple English words.call me vain but i never get bored of it.for the most part,its true.except for the creative bent of mind part.celah mana pulak aku kreatif ? =))

roger and out.will blog about my trip to terengganu when im free.time for bed now.

Photos.

as promised,here are a few photos from Floria and some other stuff.there are only a few though.my internet is slow.u get the picture right ? haha.enjoy !

this is the dance team for Floria 2010.

we got 5 newcomers.

cris,lynn,budriz,ahmad & shauqi.

lynn isn't in this photo.

fyi, she's SUPER cute. ;)

all of them are juniors.

innocent younger ones.

shauqi happens to be my neighbor back in manjung.

haha.

this is what i wore for Floria 2010.

minus the makeup,wig,headgears etc etc.

girls in action doing Menyusun Jari.

spot the Nini !

boys in action doing Zapin Campur.

so ewww right ? hahaha.

aku tak tau la fydo ni kena sampuk hantu ke apa.

hahahahahahahahahah.

the girls.

Utt looks pretty much the same like on tv to me.

i like his sense of style though.

sonic the hedghog.

si kecil yang amat amat amat amat comel. =)

roger and out.need to get ready for my trip to terengganu.pushing off at around 9.30pm.

monday blues.

"One day you’re going to want that specific girl. That girl that knew she wasn’t perfect, but tried to be for you. That girl who sees your flaws, but values them as much as your strengths. That girl who realizes she may never have your heart, but will carry the image of you in hers forever. And by the time you realize that’s the girl you’re looking for, she’ll be with the guy who already knew.."

found this on one of my school seniors' facebook.very sweet. =)

today i ditched three morning classes.i came home and went to bed late last night.the aftermath being me not being able to open my eyes,heave myself up to bathe,clothe myself and walk to class.i'll try not to pull another stunt like this after this. =.="

went to Sunway yesterday.saw VJ Utt live.he looks similar live and on TV.his voice.his face.his gestures.he dyed his hair blonde.so he kinda looks like some kind of ah beng.ya know.with his face looking alot like a chinese. (however the hell did that happen ? i thought he's supposed to be half american half thai).but all the same,he looks gorgeous.with his "tweet this" tee,skinny jeans and black nike sneakers.

managed to score tickets for the MTV world stage.this is to make up for missing tokio hotel's showcase the other day.don't wanna get too excited.don't wanna crash and burn like i did with tokio hotel's showcase.for the world stage,i wanna see who sucks more singing live,the nominees being tokio hotel and katy perry.i think the award shall go to tokio hotel. =))

apparently intranet servers that used to exist have now been shut down.where will i download how i met your mother ? geez. =.="

roger and out.i need some rest.im tired from ditching too many classes.

Floria Putrajaya 2010.

yesterday the whole GEMA UNITEN crew (which consist of tarian,gamelan and choir) went down to Floria Putrajaya 2010 to perform in what i call a mini concert.to be frank,i didn't enjoy it very much.been busy the whole day yesterday.in the morning,went down to USK to pack costumes for the dance team.there were too many things to find and sort out.costumes for seven girls and eight guys,what do u expect ? dengan keadaan bilik kostum USK yang macam tongkang pecah kena bom pat juta kali,it certainly didn't help things.kind of like finding a needle in a haystack.dashed to mines at around noon to grab some stuff for the girls in the dance team and buy lunch with my two housemates.went home afterwards but didn't get to do much except bathe.then dashed back to USK again for another performance run through.after much hustle bustle of loading stuff into the university truck and at approximately 5.20pm,we rode the bus to the performance site which was at Precint 2 Putrajaya.it was only about 15minutes from college,but i slept the whole way anyway.i was tired by this time.

when we got there,we realized that we somehow forgot to bring along the makeup kit.makeup is CRUCIAL for a dancer.no makeup,no show.after like 15 phone calls to 5 different people,we finally managed to get our hands on the makeup kit somehow.problem averted.we proceeded with getting ready for the show which was scheduled to start at 9pm.the dressing room that the organizer gave us was TINY.magine cramming lots of people in it.it had only two tiny light bulbs to light the room and had no mirror (how were we supposed to put on makeup without any mirror ? what if we end up looking like a momok ?).it was so friggin hot in there.pening kepala aku duduk dalam tu.not to mention i was already having a severe headache from not wearing glasses.the condition there was just so uncomfortable. =.="

so came 9pm.we were on stage all set to dance.we started the routine along with the music.we danced for like 10seconds..aaaaaaaand the cd skipped.so we stopped in the middle of our routine.i was like..oh man this is bad.we continued when the music continued.aaaaaaaaaand the cd skipped again.we continued.aaaaaaaaaaaaaand the cd skipped again.continue.skip.continue.skip.this thing repeated till halfway through our routine.dammit la.malu okay ? we were ushered off stage and had to start all over again.technical difficulties SUCK BIG TIME ! however, our second attempt to perform went smoothly.that was after they changed the CD player to a laptop.the rest of the night were filled with performances by the gamelan and choir group.these guys did well.

i arrived home at 12am.by this time,i was SUPER exhausted and ready to die.my body ached so bad i felt like buying a cane to support my backbone.i had cuts on my hand that came from God knows where.my face was itching like crazy.i smelled like a million goats put together. T.T i fell asleep as soon as my head touched the pillow.another show like this and i might opt to resign from dancing.diva much nini ? =P

roger and out.house chores.its the weekends for heaven's sake.might be going shopping tomorrow.

note : pictures will be uploaded later.much later.

Now That we're Done by Metro Station.

"She's just a friend, you see
You always agree
You know I lie but you still trust me
And you believed with so much hope
But I'm the one that let you go

Now that we're done
I'm so sorry
Why did I lie I'm so sorry
I know I hurt you
I know I hurt you

Woah oh oh oh
everybody get down.

Everybody get down.

You still call my phone
Cause you still want me
I'll tell my friends you're so annoying
You'll cry and curse when you're alone
But laugh and flirt when we're on the phone

Now that we're done
I'm so sorry
Why did I lie I'm so sorry
I know I hurt you
I know I hurt you x2

Woah oh oh oh
everybody get down. [x2]

Now I see you with him
And it was nothing like I thought it'd be
(And I'll break down)
Now I see you with him
And it was nothing like I thought it'd be
(And I'll break down)
Now I see you with him
It was nothing like I thought it'd be

Now that we're done
I'm so sorry
Why did I lie I'm so sorry
I know I hurt you
I know I hurt you

Whoa oh oh oh
Everybody get down
Everybody get down.."

junior year !

today my junior year officially starts.feels like it was only yesterday i went through my foundy orientation week.im getting older and none the wiser ! surprise.surprise.third year man.in two years i'll come out a university graduate.im not ready to start my career life just yet.dont think i'll ever be ready.i want to study forever !

the day went by like every other first days in my previous semesters.i got up.bluetoothed my timetable into my phone.took a bath.sashayed full of style and 15minutes late into my first class which was Random.yes people.i am a very good student.so far my lecturers have exceeded my expectations.praying hard for everything to go well !

for the record,i'm officially a dancer for JARI Studio.signed a contract yesterday.it doesn't say im bonded for how long.but i have made my decision.as soon as i graduate,i'll be taking a permanent break from dancing.so that's in two years time.need to concentrate on bigger and better stuff.

roger and out.need to do a few chores.like cleaning my thrashed room for instance.

note : my ex boyfriend told me blogs are for people who have no one to talk to.gemuk la.hahahahah.but in a way i guess that kinda applies to me.no offense guys.i guess he was referring to me. =))

defensive.

one thing people don't notice about me is if i see something i don't like,i get super defensive.right now,im feeling NOTHING but that.my brain is working like a machine.ready to lash out at anybody in my way.ready to say and do things to hurt other people.i hate feeling this way.brings me nothing but harm.it affects my relationship with people around me.AND it shows that i'm easily controlled by my feelings.like im thinking using my ass instead of my brain.whenever this happens,i feel the need to stay away from people.ya know.sebelum aku start kuarkan ayat2 kurang hajar.need to chillax for a bit.thanks for the call yana.i needed that.

im never stoked when it comes to heading back to Bangi.i hate leaving mum and dad here.

new word added to my vocabulary.all thanks to andy sixx.STOKED.

roger and out.want to spend as much time as possible with mummy.tonight,i dont care if i have to watch sappy korean dramas.as long as its with mom.

note : suddenly remembered.there was this one day i talked to yana.she told me this : "ego kau macam ego lelaki.." shit.really?that's bad then.

9 Naughty Kids.

5 girls who are my nieces and 4 boys who are my nephews make up a team of 9 naughty kids,the youngest being a year old and the eldest being 10 years old.i love these kids ALOT.more than words can say.at times i do get annoyed at the whole bunch of them.ya know how kids are.stubborn, loud, noisy, messy.but i undeniably love them.tonight,i feel like i really miss them.so here i am looking at their pictures and smiling like a maniac.hahah.i might as well just post em here.this is all 9 of them.

on the right is Sakinah Afifah.she's the 1st grandchild in my family.she's 10,VERY soft spoken and shy.this is the one niece that i REALLY LOVE teasing because she laps it up by smiling,laughing and shrieking "Auntie Niniiiiiii!!!".hehe.i miss u kak yong.

beside her is her brother Muhammad Syukri.he's 8 and adores everything that has to do with Ultraman,Ben 10,Power Rangers etc etc etc you name it ! this nephew of mine is super attached to my sister, Nina since he was a baby.even now, he sleeps with my sister whenever he gets the chance.i miss u abang ngah.

now this is Sofiyyah Afifah.this year she's 6.she can draw VERY well and she absolutely loves posing for the camera ! and this niece of mine is very independent since she's the middle child and very very very sensitive.she has the sweetest smile ever and a very deep dimple on her left cheek just like my mom.hihih.i miss you sofiyyah.

Muhammad Shawqi.this dude is 4.everytime i see him,i feel like squeezing his cheeks till they fall off his face.tembam ! and his eyelashes curl like he's wearing mascara. suka ! =D when shawqi was a baby, he had the loudest and roughest voice of all.like his brother Syukri,he adores everything monster related.like his sister Sakinah,he's very shy and almost a loner.dia sangat suka senyum.i miss u shawqi.


then along comes Syazwina Afifah.she's 2 now.at home we call her wina.this is my niece with the hardest name to pronounce (at least for my mum.she keeps calling her Syazrina).she loves attention given by specifically men.we dunno why.she loves to giggle.and loves looking at cats.she's in the process of learning how to pronounce my name.hehe.i miss u wina.

Lyana Kamilia.she's the same age as Sakinah but seven months younger.this KL girl is up to date and very stylish.when my nieces and nephews play together,she's the queen bee that makes everything happen and bosses everyone around.she sure knows her way with words.she's also very brilliant and smart.i love hugging her cuz she's like my teddy bear.hihih.i miss u kamilia.


Kamilia's younger brother, Syamil Imran.Syamil is 5 this year.this little dude is a bundle of energy ! the only time he sits still is when he's asleep.he asks many many many questions (and sometimes i cant even answer em).hehe.he's very sweet and knows what to say to make people feel better (for example,tokwan cantik la pakai baju ni.hehe.).out of all my nephews,syamil is the funniest.hahahah.i miss u adik.


on to Amirah Atiqah who is 7 this year.if u look closely,her hair is brunette and STICK STRAIGHT.i love her hair.so soft.my dad said she would grow up to be a pretty lady.hihih.atiqah is very down to earth BUT she loves staying in hotels.she also likes singing.hehe.she also follows my habit whenever i sleep in bed : SANGAT BUAS macam binatang buas.like sofiyyah,she's sensitive too.i miss u atiqah.

the last and most recent one is Amir Saifullah who turned a year old last january.as soon as he was born,i thought he,among all my nephews,had the most mature face of all.he somehow seems un-baby-like.he loves screaming at the top of his lungs.hehe.he laughs whenever my sis-in-law gets angry at him. =)) he also look alot like my sister in law.he's only 1.but he loves disturbing his sister and pulling her hair.i miss u saif.

roger and out.tempe memanggil.hahahahahaha.

The Illuminati and Pop Stars. II

more links from The Vigilant Citizen.check it out.the first two links are a MUST read.find out what the song Umbrella really means.and in disturbia, notice the part where Rihanna sings "bum bum de dum dum..." again and again?it has a certain meaning to it.the meaning scared the shit out of me. T.T

• Occult and Prophetic Messages in Rihanna’s Umbrella
• Rihanna’s Disturbia: A Song about Being Possessed by
• Rihanna’s “Russian Roulette” or What’s Wrong with the Entertainment Industry
• Lady Gaga, the Illuminati Puppet – Part 2
• Lady Gaga’s “Alejandro”: The Occult Meaning
• Lady Gaga’s Bad Romance – The Occult Meaning

roger and out.popiah waiting for me patiently on the table for me to eat em.

The Illuminati and Pop Stars.

one of the things im highly interested in is concerning the Illuminati.from who to what,from where to how.u name it.im interested in EVERYTHING concerning that.below are a few links taken from the same website connecting pop stars (namely Lady Gaga, Paramore, Katy Perry, Christina Aguilera) to the Illuminati.a very interesting read indeed.the reality is pretty scary (at least for me).Credits go to The Vigilant Citizen.i haven't finished reading them all.but i thought this thing is super interesting and i couldn't wait to put it on my blog.

• Lady Gaga, The Illuminati Puppet
• The Hidden Meaning of Lady Gaga's "Telephone"
• Transhumanism, PsyWar and B.E.P.’s “Imma Be”
• Kerli’s Creepy Video About Mind Control
• Paramore’s “Brick by Boring Brick”: A Song about Mind Control

roger and out.i wanna read more of this !

note : i had no idea who the hell Kerli was until i listened to Alice in Wonderland's OST album.Kerli sang a duet with Tokio Hotel called "Strange".now im starting to think that song has something to do with the Illuminati too.

thoughts inc.

1. spent the whole day yesterday with mom hanging out eating fries,shopping and cooking.the last part doesn't sound like me at all.

2. already bought my baju raya.pretty early eh?my family isn't the kind to shop for baju raya EVERY single year.so its a pretty nice change getting to shop for it.i bought two.a black baju kebaya, i have always wanted one of those.nicely fit instead of the skin tight ones (i lack curves).and a very colorful baju kurung modern, upon mum's request.thank you mummy ! =)

3. telling the truth and end up hurting someone is always the better option than telling lies and living with guilt.

4. yesterday i had this weird dream.i carpooled with this girl i used to be close to (now not anymore),played with her hair and saw her texting this dude which bothered me ALOT.i woke up clueless.am i going through a turkish lesbian phase ? haha. =.="

5. there are at times when i think of doing the unthinkable and just go beserk.but the i realize..nahhh.its just not worth it.

6. mum told me if i didn't get an A for my BM,i must have been born into the wrong family of entirely Malays.i got a B+.so i guess im English then. =))

7. not being able to on9 is a lot better than being able to.me getting to go on9 means being cooped up in my room and spending less time with mum.

8. i dont ever want to go back to Bangi.i feel safe at home.like nothing can harm me.

9. somehow i feel like the entire world is disagreeing with me and being on his side.or maybe everything that my head comes up with seems to be in the wrong direction?

10. the truth is most of the time,i don't wanna get distracted by my friends.i wanna get distracted by YOU.you are what i call the PERFECT DISTRACTION.

roger and out.my reign of freedom of speech has begun.

So I Guess This Is Goodbye by I Am Ghost

to whom it may concern.report much?what a bitch.hahaha.instead of entertaining super dumb, two faced freaks like you who come in here to find news to tell the whole world just to get on someone's good side,i might as well listen to steven juliano.at least he sounds good.p.s : thanks to you,i have started cursing again.i stopped for a while back then.i was saving it for someone who REALLY deserved it.and that is YOU.so please feel honored.hehe.i dont give a damn anymore.im actually laughing. =))

"So I drew a goodnight kiss,

I said it was all for you
Held your face in time
But the miracles came crashing down

But it was too late; the killers came
With knives and dressed all in blue
As they suck me in
I take your hand, well, isn't this romantic?

He's learned a lot from watching you and I (lovely)
Just wish these dreams would follow through

Don't ever be afraid, 'cause I'm never letting go
Of your face since I knew there would be...
Blood spilling from your cut,
The ropes enwrapped you in love
Memories feed this disease
And I hate it

But it was too late, the killers home
And knows you well I assume
As my luck grows thin I take your hand
Well, isn't this romantic?

He's learned a lot from watching you and I (lovely)
Just wish I already knew

Don't ever be afraid, 'cause I'm never letting go
Of your face since I knew there would be blood.
Take these words I say, "Will you marry me?" to your grave
I knew you were the one.
This blood is love

You, me, I do, let's float away and die
You, me, I do, let's float away and die

He's learned a lot from watching you and I (lovely)
Tell the preacher to give our last goodbye

Don't ever be afraid, 'cause I'm never letting go
Of your face since I knew there would be blood.
Take these words I say, "Will you marry me?" to your grave
I knew you were the one,
The one, the one!
I knew there would be blood.."