wish list.

things to buy:

1) Apple Earpods

2) Logitech Boombox for iPhone ; to eye other brands as well e.g Edifier, Altec Lansing, Sonic Gear

3) Redwing Pecos Slip On High Cut

4) Taktik Lunatik for iPhone ; under consideration

list will be updated from time to time.

Book #1

logged on to my blogger account yesterday. stared at the laptop screen for fifteen minutes, trying to absorb the mood to write from god knows where but ended up clicking the X button on the top right corner of my browser window. my brain was awfully dry last night. not a single drop of brain juice. this is my second attempt at it. i hope i succeed this time. inhale. exhale. here goes. 

made myself a promise to set aside forty bucks each month to buy a book. kinda like a treat for myself, from well.. myself. i am serious about the whole having-a-gigantic-bookshelf-full-of-nothing-but-books-by-the-time-i-am-seventy thing. see my face? *muka serious*

so. the first book that i bought was "The Perks of Being a Wallflower" by Stephen Chbosky. The second sentence on the front cover says "now a major motion picture". i've been called poyo and tah pape for this but i prefer reading the book compared to watching the movie. why? i would say my imagination is pretty limited when it comes to certain things. i find reading being the best way for me to play around with my imagination. how the characters look like, how they do things, what they wear, their tone of voice, all the feelings involved, theories of why things in the story happen. i get it all worked up in my head as i read. so there.  

fyi, i DID not buy this book because ezra miller on the cover. i bought it because my best friend gave the movie a good review and i thought i would check the book out. two words to summarize this book: light reading. it's pretty straight forward. tells the tale of a typical american high school freshman named Charlie who deals with struggles of being a teenager. sex, drugs, alcohol, love, studies, siblings, music, freedom, friendship. usually hollywood focuses on the more popular side of high school, cheerleaders, jocks, athletes. this book sheds some light on the other side of town, the much less popular crowd, the sensitive wallflower. 

i hate the word lazy. i'm not gonna say i'm lazy to write some more. i'm sleepy. ok enough. kroih. roger and out.

1 Year 3 Months Later

Remember this post? I guess not. My last post was in August last year, a week after my birthday. Ages huh?  It's not that I'm not big on blogs anymore or anything of that sort. Life has been tremendously hectic really. I would say I'm high on life. Alhamdulillah.

 Like a blade, my English is getting rustier by the minute. I am desperately clinging to English novels to polish my vocab and grammar. Major, big time SOS! Made a promise to myself that I'd set aside forty bucks for a novel each month. By the time I die, I'd have a GIGANTIC shelf full of nothing but books, books, books and more books. Epic. That is if I die when I'm like seventy or something. Haha.

But anyway, I am supposed to write about this on the 19th of November 2012. But I missed the date. So here I am, a year and three months after the above post. Have I achieved the goals I have set for myself? Apparently, yes. I wake up every single day, feeling absolutely positive. I love my job. It has been three months after my graduation and yes I have said goodbye to my college friends. I am making new memories and meeting new people every single day. I do keep the ones I love and some of my old memories close by. And I am in a steady relationship. For everything, Alhamdulillah. Just Alhamdulillah. :)

Funny looking back. You can plan your life all you want but if Allah swt means for it to happen in a totally different way, it would. I'm one of the lucky few whose plan did pan out accordingly. Nothing more I want in life right now. I have everything I need.

Roger and out. It's five minutes past my bed time!

:)

Oh hey there.haven't been here in a while.blogs seem so out of fashion these days huh? I used to blog to polish my english.i kinda strayed away from my main intention of blogging when i encountered a few hitches in life e.g boy problems, study headaches.when that happened, i made this blog a place to vent.now that i'm back to being absolutely happy again (alhamdulillah!), i shall go back to making this blog a place to well..brush up my rusty english.

now let's pick up where i left off.my last post was waaaaaaay back in january.i kinda remember how i felt when i posted my previous post.i was unhappy, missing my then boyfriend badly, pissed off with things, unsatisfied, basically all the negatives.it's august now.it's the third day of Eid 2012.i'm nowhere close to feeling what i felt in January.as a student, i have been busy finishing up my studies, final year project, quizzes, tests, assignments etc.now i'm no longer a student and have already started working.i'm a month in and everything at work is going on great so far.time flies fast huh? It's amazing how swiftly life can change in seven months.

Relationship wise, i've found an amazing guy who makes me absolutely happy.moving on doesn't necessarily have to end up with heartache i guess.things are so different now than it was back then.i'm getting the support i need from all sides.hoping that things will go on smoothly in due course.ho ho ho.

Roger and out.makan la beb.macam biasa.

dimylva

                                           

asdfghjkl.

posted this before.posting it again.this song means so much to me.i love it so much i don't mind typing the lyrics,word by word.the funny thing is,every sentence relates to what i'm experiencing now. :))

never found out why you left him.
but this answer begs that question.
to blind to see tomorrow.
to broke to beg or borrow.
young and stupid.left wide open.
hearts are wasted.
lives are broken.
one more point of contention.
i need some intervention.
approached with vague intentions.
betray my short attention
span the distance.
bridge the border.
beg forgiveness.
round the corner.
every time i look for you the sun goes down.
and i stumble when this whole thing runs aground.
i left another message you are never around.
every time i look for you the sun goes down.
more time apart will give you
a few more months to argue.
is it too much to live through?
it always seems to far to drive
the point home
send more letters.
pray tomorrow.
ends up better.
i never did do anything that she asked.
i never let what happened stay in the past.
i never did quite understand what she meant.
in spite of everything.
in spite of everything.

it's the effort that counts.

don't be sad.it's the effort that matters.the rest is up to Allah swt.your job is to remain optimistic. :)

anyway, watched Buletin Utama yesterday.The Mines in Seri Kembangan got raided by Jakim.out of all the eateries there,eight of them were fined for using fake Jakim Halal logos and certificates.and one of them unfortunately is Subway.i always go there whenever i'm feeling sandwiches.hantu betul.

the funny thing about the Malaysian journalistic standards is that they don't drop names for important things like this.for example yesterday, they only mentioned "sebuah pusat membeli belah di Seri Kembangan".only when i looked at the footage,i recognized it as The Mines.and i knew Subway was one of the eateries that were fined because i saw the footage of one of the workers (which i recognize  =.=") taking down the Halal logo down.come on.there are tons of shopping places in the Seri Kembangan area alone.and finding halal food is fardhu kifayah for every Muslim.how about those who took one look,don't recognize the place and happily eat there? Free-free je makan makanan tak halal.why are they so scared to expose the names of the eateries or the name of the shopping complex, i have no idea.apparently covering up the shop owners asses is far more important than Muslims looking for halal food.

p.s: thinking of getting an iPad.but for that,i need to dig deep for extra coins in my piggy bank.hmmm.

Everlong by the Foo Fighters

Hello 

I've waited here for you 

Everlong 

Tonight 

I throw myself into 

And out of the red, out of her head she sang 

Come down 

And waste away with me 

Down with me 

Slow how 

You wanted it to be 

I'm over my head, out of her head she sang 

And I wonder 

When I sing along with you 

If everything could ever feel this real forever 

If anything could ever be this good again 

The only thing I'll ever ask of you 

You've got to promise not to stop when I say when 

She sang 

Breathe out 

So I could breathe you in 

Hold you in 

And now 

I know you've always been 

Out of your head, out of my head I sang 

And I wonder 

When I sing along with you 

If everything could ever feel this real forever 

If anything could ever be this good again 

The only thing I'll ever ask of you 

You've got to promise not to stop when I say when 

She sang 

And I wonder 

If everything could ever feel this real forever 

If anything could ever be this good again 

The only thing I'll ever ask of you 

You've got to promise not to stop when I say when 

She sang

Time-Bomb by All Time Low

they've been accused of being copy cats to Blink 182 and FOB.

who cares?

 their songs are good.

Oh oh, oh oh

Oh oh, oh oh

From the get-go, I knew this was hard to hold

Like a crash, the whole thing spun out of control

Oh, on a wire, we were dancing

Two kids, no consequences

Pull a trigger without thinking

There's only one way down this road

It was like a time bomb, set into motion

We knew that we were destined to explode

And if I had to pull you out of the wreckage

You know I'm never gonna let you go

We’re like a time bomb

Gonna lose it, let's defuse it

Baby, we’re like a time bomb

But I need it

Wouldn't have it any other way

Well, there's no way out of this

So let's stay in

Every storm that comes

Also comes to an end

Oh, resistance is useless

Just two kids, stupid and fearless

Like a bullet shooting a lesson

There's only one way down this road

It was like a time bomb, set into motion

We knew that we were destined to explode

And if I had to pull you out of the wreckage

You know I'm never gonna let you go

We’re like a time bomb

Gonna lose it, let's defuse it

Baby, we’re like a time bomb

But I need it

Wouldn't have it any other way

Got my heart in your hands Like a time bomb ticking

It goes off, we start again

When it breaks, we fix it

Got your heart in my hands Like a time bomb ticking

We should know

Better, but we won't let go

It was like a time bomb, set into motion

We knew that we were destined to explode

(Destined to explode)

And if I had to pull you out of the wreckage

You know I'm never gonna let you let me go

(I'm never gonna let you go)

Like a time bomb

Gonna lose it, let's defuse it

Baby, we’re like a time bomb

But I need it

Wouldn't have it any other way

Oh oh, oh oh

The Deluminator

"The deluminator. It doesn’t just turn off lights. I don’t know how it works but Christmas morning, I was sleeping in this little pub, keeping away from some Snatchers, and I heard it. A voice. Your voice, Hermione. You said my name. Just my name. Like a whisper. So I took it, clicked it and this tiny ball of light appeared. And I knew. It flew towards me, the ball of light, right threw my chest and straight through me. Right here [Ron touches his heart] And I knew it was going to take me where I needed to go..."

mommy.

Masjidil Haram, July 2011

 “Wahai orang beriman! Hendaklah kamu semua sentiasa menjadi orang yang menegakkan keadilan kerana Allah, lagi menerangkan kebenaran dan jangan sekali-kali kebencian kamu terhadap sesuatu kaum itu mendorong kamu kepada tidak melakukan keadilan. Hendaklah kamu berlaku adil (kepada sesiapa juga) kerana sikap adil itu lebih hampir kepada takwa. Dan bertakwa kepada Allah, sesungguhnya Allah Maha Mengetahui dengan mendalam akan apa yang kamu lakukan.” 

(Surah Al-Maidah, ayat 8)

listened to Dato Seri Nizar Jamaluddin's talk yesterday.he mentioned the above ayat taken from the Al-Quran.it made me think of mom.i think i've written in this blog countless times that i love my mommy very much.i'm sure you all have different reasons why you look up to your mom.here's why i look up to mine.mommy looks for the best in people and doesn't judge a person based on the things she hears or how a person looks.unlike some people.dengar cerita dari mulut orang tanpa mengenal orang tu dengan lebih mendalam, terus buat penilaian.tengok rupa, terus buat penilaian.sorry to say, but aku dah pernah terkena benda ni dengan mak seseorang masa sekolah dulu.mummy belajar setakat SPM je.but her manners towards treating other people? flawless.kalah orang ada degree.even when someone makes her uncomfortable, she doesn't make it a reason to treat the person like crap.mum always tells me, even when someone dislikes you or treats you indifferently or makes you uncomfortable in any way, never retaliate and treat them back the same way.i used to wonder why she keeps telling me that.now i know why.refer to the ayat above.

Foster the People - Torches

i think the album artwork is cute.

the song in it are very nice too.

makes you wanna joget cucuk langit.

chili issue.

cili gemuk 

As a kid, I have always despised eating anything spicy or chili infused.ask my nanny.she'll tell u.it's like every time something spicy touches my tongue even the slightest bit,my brain immediately triggers a pulse that turns on the switch to this conscience part at the back of my brain saying okay I hate this taste.it's the hot, burning pain on the tongue and lips that gets to me.sakit.even when I swallow a bucket full of iced water, the pain still won't go away.so this has somehow made me afraid of chili.pffftt.chicken.

So anyway, a few minutes ago my mom told me to go make sos senah (named so by yours truly.derives from the name Hasnah, which is my mom's name) which is basically sweet soy sauce,garlic,a little bit of lime juice and my best friend Mr Chili.made the sauce,washed my hands not so thoroughly,went to my room and rolled around in bed happily.and then my right eye got itchy.and I rubbed it.with my hands.skrg mata aku pedas.sakit nak mati.aku taip pun sebelah mata.terkedip2 mcm nak tercabut.dah takde maknanya aku nak cakap omputih.eeeeeeeeee this is why I hate chili!!! Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!

imy.

Not Over You by Gavin Degraw

nice song, Gavin.

Dreams
That's where I have to go
To see your beautiful

Face anymore I stare at a picture of you

And listen to the radio

Hope, hope there's a conversation

We both admit we had it good

But until then its alienation I know that much is understood,

And I realise.. 

If you ask me how I'm doing

I would say I'm doing just fine

I would lie and say that you're not on my mind

But I go out, and I sit down at a table set for two

And finally I'm forced to face the truth

No matter what I say I'm..

Not over you,

Not over you

Damn, damn girl you do it well, and I thought you were innocent

Took this heart and put it through hell, but still your magnificent

I, I'm a boomerang, doesn't matter how you throw me

I turn around and I'm back in the game, even better than the old me

But I'm not even close without you

If you ask me how I'm doing

I would say I'm doing just fine

I would lie and say that you're not on my mind

But I go out, and I sit down at a table set for two

And finally I'm forced to face the truth

No matter what I say I'm..

Not over you

And if I had the chance to re-new

You know there isn't a thing I wouldn't do

I could get back, on the right track

But only if you'd be convinced 

So until then.. 

If you ask me how I'm doing

I would say I'm doing just fine

I would lie and say that you're not on my mind

But I go out, and I sit down at a table set for two

And finally I'm forced to face the truth

No matter what I say I'm..

Not over you

Not over you

Not over you

Not over you

simple math.

the math is pretty much the same.so make your bed kids! hahaha.

points to ponder

"jangan pernah mengeluh ketika seseorang menyakitimu dan kamu meninggalkannya tapi lihatlah bahawa kamu terus menyakiti Allah SWT dan Dia tidak pernah meninggalkanmu dan sentiasa membukakan pintu maaf bagimu dan memberikan kebahagiaanmu.."

credits to Abg Jaff's facebook.make Allah SWT your nawaitu  in everything and anything you do so that if mortals disappoint you or things don't turn out the way you want them to be,you won't feel the pain that much.Allah SWT is fair.keep telling yourself that.

'Mu'tamir ibn Sulayman: 'I heard my father say, 'You can never get a man to listen to you when you have just angered him.''

and this, credits to @islamspeaks on Twitter.the phrase clearly speaks for itself.so i need to take a different approach when i'm trying to level with someone.not the angry,throw words at people approach.

feeling zero creative.

i am in holiday mood.i got no mood to study.my paper is at fourteen hundred later but i've only read one chapter so far.still have like tons more to go.heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeellllppppppppp!! what's gotten into me? this is what happens when you have to sit for a paper on the last day of exam week.the paper i'll be sitting for later is creative thinking.not feeling the creative vibe at all.yikes.

i absolutely CANNOT wait to meet my parents.i have a feeling i'll be spending more time away from home than at home this holiday.nak duduk manjung.manjung best.tak banyak kereta jahat macam KL.manjung wangi.KL busuk.

and i MUST keep myself occupied with my final year project.final year project please nini.bukan berangan atau makan tidur makan tidur atau main game ye.a little progress with my project at the very least.and maybe learn some new recipes from mummy.and also bake some Pillsbury brownies.yes i make brownies using ready made batter.who cares? it's delicious.why waste time mixing up batter from scratch when there's an easier and much more delicious option? plus if you mix batter from scratch, you get the same batter as Pillsbury anyway.

see the one i highlighted? the next four months will be the last moments of my college student life.after that, i'll be getting my first taste of the real world.dunno how it'll taste like.salty? sweet? sour? bitter? or would it taste like Wonka Nerds Watermelon slash Wild Cherry flavor? i'm scurrrred.

study la woi.hadiahkan sekuntum flying kick baru tau.rabiatul dan keluar.

#1thingifindsexy

i can name more than one!

your eyes.
your sense of humor.
the way you talk.
the way you laugh.
the way you walk.
the way you play the guitar.
the way you skate.
your colorful onitsuka tiger.
the way you drive batmobile.
the way you text.
the way you love.
the way you say good luck before i step into the exam hall.
your morning sleepy voice.
your tousled hair.
your voice.
your strawberry shaped face.
how protective you are of your family.
how quiet you were back then.
how family oriented you are.
how kind you are to cats and old people.
and above all,your big heart that you've hidden from me all this while.

see? i can name more than one.  *grin*

i wanna name summore.but i guess i better stop before you guys puke all over the floor. :))

words!

yeah i've made MANY mistakes.i've said things that i regret later on.but that doesn't stop me from apologizing and trying to make things right.holding on tight to what mom said.selagi boleh buat baik dengan orang, buat lah walaupun orang tu tak layan kita setimpal dengan apa yang kita bagi.mungkin kita yang salah.so don't be ashamed to admit your mistakes and never stop trying to make things right.it's about giving and never about taking.it's not about being weak and letting people stomp all over you.it's about being forgiving and letting the heart be free from negativity.no matter how bad or good a person treats us, in the end it's between him and Allah swt.Allah swt itu Maha Adil.tersangat adil. :)

this is the reason why when i'm being blocked by a person on their phones or social network,i still text them to tell things so that kalau aku mati,tanggungjawab aku dalam bab-bab ni dah lepas.at least i texted them,explained things and apologized.i did my part in trying to mend things.mereka tak baca,itu mereka punya pasal.if they don't read them,it's out of my control.and aku tak nak mati dalam keadaan tak mintak maaf/berhutang dengan orang.berat sangat beban tu untuk aku pikul.

roger and out.hungry.