More on Andartu Terlampau..

in my previous post,i forgot to mention how utterly inappropriate the leading lady was.i guess she knew that her movie sucked.so she was trying to distract the viewers by wearing revealing clothes; short skirts,low neck tops and even suspenders.forgive me for saying this,but to be frank she looks like a whore.sorry sangat.jujur ni. T.T no matter how pretty u are,Malay girls who carry the Muslim name dont suit that look AT ALL.only westeners can sport that look and actually get away with it.maybe cause well,they were the ones who created those looks.there was even one scene from that movie where she was rolling around in bed and her shirt was kinda pulled up only to reveal her well...very "fit" tummy.i nearly threw up in my seat. T.T just when u have the urge to support the local movie scene,this is what happens.u get disappointed eventually and almost every single time.huh.

Andartu Terlampau 21 Hari Mencari Suami..

is a movie that sucks so sO SO bad that it sucks more fat than liposuction!i have no idea what got into our heads when we (we as in dee,daus,naz and moi) agreed to watch that movie.a complete waste of time and money (thank goodness it was only rm9 and not rm900.eff its still money!i could have eaten dinner at Ali's with that money!).trust me i have NEVER fallen asleep in a cinema before.i kinda broke my personal record.the movie sucked so bad that i fell asleep halfway through it.i swear i would have snored loudly as a sign of protest,a plea for help and to show how dumb that movie was but hey,i am a Malay girl with manners.very graceful.NOT.haha.the storyline is seriously sloppy.sloppier than 7-11's slurpee.up until now,i still have no clue whatsoever what the movie was about.its not that i give much of a damn anyway.its just that i kinda regret it wasnt worth the money at all.naz even wanted to punch the face of whoever directed the movie.Andartu Terlampau officially tops my list of WORST MOVIE EVER.

today,we went swedish all the way.thank u dee for treating us to meatballs!

these meatballs are currently inside daus's tummy.

for the record,i think i've gained a little weight.i have two people telling me im starting to look chubby.is that good or bad?might be a good thing now.wait till i start looking like a school bus.wonder what they'll say then.i've been eating too much lamb chop!must.stop.myself.must.save.lambs.from.being.eaten.by.a.monster.called.nini.

roger and out.i need to lie down.my stomach hurts so much that i think it might be jumping up and down and doing back flips inside my body.

*im still holding on to that pink sony mp3 i got for my birthday last year.please dont ask me why.it contains a certain sentimental value to it*

moodless.

i am NOT in the mood for anything.i have been trying so hard to stay glued in front of the laptop with Vampire Diaries to distract me.apparently,my attempts tonight are futile.what is up with me then?for one thing,it is SUPER hot tonight.the blood in my brain is boiling and is on the verge of exploding.i have thrown my window open so wide that i think it might fall off from its frame.am i worried about something?am i sad?upset?fucked up?hurt?no.none of those things apply to me tonight.i guess i'm just moodless.and its not putting me at ease.at all.

today i kinda got bored out of my wits.spent the day lazing around in bed,doing nothing useful in particular.nothing worth mentioning in here anyway.the only productive thing i did today was going to Matul's bro's wedding.was fun cuz i got to eat good food.thank you for inviting me Matul.it'll be ur wedding i'll be attending next.cheers! ;) the reception itself was beautiful.nothing makes me happier than watching two people being united in a very sacred union. =)

speaking of weddings.every girl has their own dream wedding right?know what mine is?a simple but VERY intimate garden wedding attended by only my family members and close friends.a sit down dinner under the starry night sky.the bersanding thing wouldn't be a necessity.no offense to the Malay tradition but i find it very off putting having people ogle at u on the pelamin.i want it to be meaningful,calm and quiet.im having doubts in making this dream a reality.the garden at my house is super tiny.and i think baba has other things planned for me.haha.

roger and out.got salt?i want to MURDER this ulcer inside my mouth by sprinkling salt on it.eff you ulcer!u have been a regular customer in my mouth ever since 24th january 2006,the first day i wore my braces!this spells nothing but S.H.I.T.

Citrawarna 2010...

was fun and damn colorful!if u guys are wondering what citrawarna is,it is actually a show to promote malaysia by the means of performing arts mainly dancing (DEFINITELY for dancing freaks like me!).it is held every year (i think) at Dataran Merdeka.the show consists of everything Malaysian,from the Malays to the Chinese,from teh tarik to roti canai,from Suria KLCC to Pavilion,all shown through colorful costumes,loud music and dance steps.its amazing how dancing can be used to tell different stories.since daus,wan,taufiq and ozair were participants for this year's citrawarna,only me and nazrin were the only ones left in my group of friends to be audiences slash daus's personal photographer.we went to the full dress rehearsal and the actual performance.in a way,im kinda thankful me n naz went to the full dress rehearsal.it was very much like the actual performance,minus the crowd and the VIP's lengthy speech.so we weren't really bummed out when we didnt get decent seats for the actual performance because we already watched the whole show before everybody else did!next year i might consider joining the show as one of the dancers if i was given a chance.would be very awesome indeed!every since the breakup,i've been using dancing as a distraction.it makes me happy.

i dont have anything of citrawarna to upload here because i used daus's dslr to take photos.maybe next time.

roger and out.have a wedding to attend tomorrow in USJ.

tripped and fell.got my heart broken again.

"and that was the day i promised i would never sing of love if it doesn't exist.

but darling you are the only exception..."

i wonder when would be the next time i would finally find the right tune to sing this to the person that i really really really love.
maybe in a thousand years or so.

im finally letting go.
im starting to move on.
i've made progress.too much in fact,that it surprises me.
i've turned a deaf ear and a blind eye for a long time now.
its better when i dont see and hear things.
at least it keeps my heart from aching too much.

but then again,everything was ruined tonight.
ruined by a single glance.
the pain came seeping back into my heart.
its bleeding again.
it wont stop.
it never will stop aching.
but.
no matter what u do.
no matter how sad i get.
no matter how fucked up everything is.
no matter how bad u treat me.
i just cant find it in my heart to hate u or be angry at u.

Glee Flashmob Dance.

1am.im back to being my old self.i sleep late.i wake up late.i dunno what im turning into.a bat maybe.i might as well pack up my stuff and go stay in a cave.haha.i am definitely not wife material!haihhh.no use complaining anyway. T.T im at my sister's place in KL.i've been meaning to finish reading this novel i rented at shop in Bangi.seems like my attempts to do so are returning zero results.its only ONE novel.not like..a hundred.gosh.im distracted with other things.

i've been sort of busy this week.my car broke down twice.the first was cause i left my car untouched for four days and skipped off to manjung with baba.it sort of fell apart on its own accord.the second time was entirely my fault.i forgot to turn off the lights to my car so the battery went flat.how can someone be so careless?i put baba and my friends through so much trouble because of this.im really sorry.i feel grateful i have u guys. T.T other than my car breaking down and me dashing off back and forth from Uniten to the workshop to get my car checked,i was busy with the glee flashmob dance rehearsals.i went to two out of three rehearsals.not many but i came home late each time because the rehearsals were held in KL.will be performing in midvalley (im not entirely sure) later today.

During the rehearsals,there were a bunch of people from Starworld, Astro taking shots for the Glee commercial.then came break time so me and my friends sat in front of a Glee poster.the Starworld guy came to us and handed me a microphone and told us to say "WE ARE MALAYSIA'S BIGGEST GLEEKS!!" for him to record.and so we did.a little too enthusiastically.now.my only hope is that they dont air that video.if my mom sees that commercial with her daughter's face in it,i think she shall do a backflip and hit the roof.hahaha.

all in all,the flash mob thingy isn't a complete waste of time.i have immense fun during each rehearsal.its a good exercise,a good place to meet new people,a good place to make friends and a good place to do people spotting (ya know..like weirdos and hot girls).plus.i LOVE dancing.so im really into these kind of things.

i put my niece to bed right after we had a girl talk.felt like i was ten again (that's how old my niece is).we were chatting and yapping away bout some girl in her school who was supposed to be her friend.this girl likes this boy and is trying so hard to ward off every other girl that exist from trying to be friends with this dude.wow.only ten yet so obsessed.will that girl be a pscyhopath with a knife when she grows up?hope not.malaysia does not need another addition to the crime rate that is already sky high.i remember when i was ten,i was still climbing trees and playing batu seremban instead of trying to shoo girls away from being friends with a boy.kids nowadays.hahaha.okay.now i feel old. T.T

roger and out.laundry done.must sleep now.nitey world.

groups.

notice how different kinds of group are popping up everywhere on facebook?they have groups concerning everything that cease to exist in this world.they have everything from A to Z.food.religion.music.celebrities.feelings.health.models.buildings.body parts.hobbies.u name it.everytime an issue comes up either political or criminal,a group pops out of nowhere.they like someone,they create a group.they despise someone,they create yet another group.from "i hate fasha sandha!" (which is absurd) to "Allah is a Pig" (which is downright offensive for to Muslims like me.delete group ni boleh tak?and whoever created this group,here's a coupon for one free session of skinny dipping in hell.why dont u stay there for eternity,asshat?).all of a sudden,the solution to every single problem in this world happens to be on www.facebook.com where all u have to do is click "JOIN" to join any group u fancy.see?one click.ka-blaaaaam!!everything is solved.one click.ka-boooom!!everything is solved.click here.click there.click up.click down.click tepi.right left.everywhere la.unfortunately.i am a click freak too.hahah.funny how the mind works really.

however.one group caught my eye.i came across this group called "you don't just stop loving someone.either u never did or u always will..".interesting!i shall not elaborate why.bahahaha. *evil laugh*

roger and ooooooooooooouuutt!
must.do.laundry.
must.pack.up.stuff.
must.sleep.
must.wake.up.early.
must.not.cry.when.kissing.mum.goodbye.before.pushing.off.

biggest disappointment yet.

woke up from my nap this evening.checked my phone (not that i care about it anymore since im currently boyfriend-less.its kind of a habit.haha).received a text message (oh my,what a suprise!) from a junior of mine in college.her exact words were..

"Akak..P concert tokio hotel x?aaina ada 3 ticket extra.."

the next thing i know,i was burying my head in the pillow and screaming loud into it.want me to do a demonstration?nahh.aint a pretty sight.hahaha.wont deny it.im pretty disappointed.cant help feeling that way.i got an easy access to these VIP tickets to this concert i was dying to go to.an easy access from three different people.but somehow the timing was so bad.slipped through my fingers just like that.i guess i'll have to wait for another opportunity.maybe i'll fly to Germany one day and watch them live there.sigh.

what am i doing complaining about not getting to watch some gay-ish (but very awesome indeed!) band perform?someone close to me is dealing with much tougher and more REALISTIC things.get a load of urself nini.sheeeshh.just stop the complaining already.

to whom it may concern.

"Allah s.w.t sangat sayangkan orang-orang yg baik.
Orang-orang yang baik akan sentiasa diuji oleh Allah s.w.t.."

have u ever heard this saying before?
im no angel.
so im not really in a position to talk.
but in my opinion,
this saying applies to u.
ur one person i know
that has gone through lots of pain.
too much in fact.
more than all my friends put together.
words are the only help i can offer u
and it does so little to cure ur heart.
no one can comfort u except urself.
but put it this way,
at the end of the day
Allah s.w.t is going to reward u
with something that u REALLY deserve.
so just wait patiently.
it'll be worth it.
trust me.
oh.
in case u haven't noticed,
ur friends are here for u.
not just me.
but a bunch of others.

p.s : thank u haryati ain for the beautiful blogger award!i love u tooooooooooo much to begin with! =D

between lambs and tokio hotel.

day one ; sup kambing at Ali's Bistro Putrajaya.
day two ; grilled lamb shoulder at Rendevous Kampung Pandan KL.
day three ; biriyani rice with lamb at Nasi Biriyani Gam Putrajaya.
day four ; sup kambing at DJ Nasi Kandar Sitiawan.

wowee.what an amazing achievement in four days.to be honest,i have just taught myself to eat lamb about three months back.i used to hate it alot.cuz u know,lambs are often linked with the smell of well.."paradise".u can smell it from miles away.my apetite is taking a 360degree turn and going in a whole new direction.who knows maybe one day i would enjoy a bowl of sambal petai or tempoyak? (God i hope not!).im starting to smell like a lamb by the way.hehe.

i am currently at home in Manjung.i only have classes on mondays and wednesdays this semester.so it seems pointless to stay in KL.but even when im here,there isnt much to do anyway.i dont enjoy watching TV.the household chores are mostly done by the help that comes around every week.i stay in bed all the time most of the day to avoid the scorching hot sun and weather.there aren't many hip places to go to (kampung la bak kata Nazrin).but i enjoy being here all the same.seronok duduk rumah.peluk bantal busuk.peluk baba.peluk mummy.seronok hirup udara kat Manjung.hehe.living in KL is fun but sometimes its good to get away from the hustle and bustle of the city.

and for the record,im a bit disappointed tonight.one of my best friends called a few hours ago to deliver what she thought was the greatest news EVER but turned out to be SO SO SO horrifying for me!one of her guy friends has a mom who works at TM.so apparently the dude has three extra VIP tickets to tokio hotel's showcase and he's selling them for 30bucks a pop.to add insult to injury,another friend of hers won four VIP tickets through a contest on radio.that is like..barrels and barrels of cow shit someone throws at u and hits u right in the face.being the drama queen that i rarely am,i nearly cried.i hope they come again next year for a comeback tour.im praying hard!if only i stayed in KL..haihhh.xpela.bill kaulitz isnt worth crying over (ayat ini adalah untuk menyedapkan hati saya yang sedang luka berdarah).spending time with baba and mummy is more important than watching some german dude in eyeliner singing a couple of songs.

p.s : i dont blame u yana.i know u meant the best for me.hehe.mana ko nak tau aku kat manjung kan?thanks for always being so thoughtful.love u to bits! =)

blank part two.

as promised.
more.
more.
more.
more.
more.
chipsmore.
more.
more.
more.
more pictures.

the five main races that color Malaysia.

my headgear
was blocking the view of everyone behind me.
haha.

onstage performing "Chok Chok Kendong"

five princesses.

five princes.

two sleeping beauties.
two gadget freaks.
penat tunggu turn nak perform.

i have no idea what has gotten into our heads.
a couple of bugs maybe.
hahah.

"hiyaahhh!hamek ko flying kick!"
this is my personal favorite.

Malays.

Chinese.

Indians.

Sabahans.

Sarawakians.

we were bored.
so we became underpaid models!
hahah.

the place where every uniten student
MUST
take a photo at before they graduate.

ok.i need to pee pee.i have to wake up early tomorrow.so roger and out people!goodnight. =)

blank.

wow.i havent been in here for sooooo long.my last entry was in march.that is like a month plus now.how time flies.so many things happened to me in that short amount of time.i sat for my finals for the second semester of my second year at the end of march.even got the results already (i didnt ace it like the previous semester but i did fair enuff.ehh dude.i went thru a breakup and a successive series of culture shock due to new found freedom.what do u expect?haha).AND now im even back in bangi for my intermission!this would be my last intermission where i register for a subject (i hope so) before i graduate in two years time (again,i hope so) because for the next one,i would be doing my practicals (dunno where YET.i have to give that some serious thought before its too late.yikes).

its 2.20am already.what am i doing still wide awake when i have class at 11am tomorrow?ntahla.i really dont know.i have no self control.i cant seem to care about anything anymore.im too lazy to even think for myself let alone other people.hahaha.this intermission has absolutely nothing interesting to offer me since i am only taking one subject : BM.everyday is filled with indescribable boredom since i only have six hours of class each week (4hours of lecture.2hours of consultation which isnt compulsory).it has been two weeks since i registered.up until now honestly,i cant seem to find the relevance between having to learn BM,graduating and building a career.no offense to the Malay language but needless to say,i have been taught this particular language since i was in the womb.calculating my age,20years and 9months.what is there left to learn!?is my college desperate for money or something? T.T

well.at least i have dancing to fill my time.i had a show last saturday at the TNB Headquarters in Bangsar.i aint a professional.im downright amateur.i dance like a stick figure being poked in the butt with a matchstick and made to move about.but hey.at least i can groove a wee bit here and there and dont get pebbles thrown at me on or off stage.kira boleh hidup la. =)) every show has its own memory.i have fun with these people ya know.they make me laugh all the time.hahaha.here are some pics.yes.i never fail to look like a drag queen during every show.im used to it by now.bahaha. XD

queen evil reaching out to rip ur head off!

smirk.smirkier.smirkiest.

only two for now.more will be uploaded later.the internet connection is super shitty now.good night world.need my rest.my brain is on the verge of exploding.

Song Choice 3.

Sedih dengar lagu ni.ni la apa yang aku rasa sekarang.Wait For You by Atreyu.

"It started with a kiss and turned out something else,
The blood coils in through my veins, I think of no one else.
I never believed in much, but I believe in this.
I'm incomplete without you, I'd kill to taste your kiss.

I'm lost and lonely,
Scared and hiding,
Blind without you.

When the the world comes crashing down and the skies begin to fall,
I'll wait for you.
When the days grow old and long and my skin turns into stone,
I'll wait for you.
When the pain it seems too much,
And my heart starts beating out of touch, I don't need a thing,
I'll wait for you.

It's all so different now, emotions burn me out.
I have a lifeless touch, this distance leaves no doubt.
I fear it all too much but part of me believes,
As the years pass away you made me recognize-

I'm lost and lonely,
Scared and hiding,
Blind without you.

When the the world comes crashing down and the skies begin to fall,
I'll wait for you.
When the days grow old and long and my skin turns into stone,
I'll wait for you.
When the pain it seems too much,
And my heart starts beating out of touch, I don't need a thing,
Cause I'll wait for you...
Yeah...
Cause I'll wait for you...

When the the world comes crashing down and the skies begin to fall,
I'll wait for you.
When the days grow old and long and my skin turns into stone,
I'll wait for you.
When the pain it seems too much,
And my heart starts beating out of touch, I don't need a thing,
I know I don't need a thing,
I'll wait for you."

thoughts.

1. listening to bill kaulitz sing makes me love the german language even more.
2. who is bill kaulitz?google it creeps!
3. when u have done so,please do not contradict me when i say he is extremely handsome.yes his hair is like a lion's mane and he looks like a girl.somehow i have a thing for dudes like that.hahah.
4. beauty lies on the inside right?a good heart is what matters. =)
5. blogs are for self expression.if u dont like it then DONT read it.but i find it weird when people use blogs to diss and fight with other people.
6. listening to loud music every night is a necessity for me.if not,i die of dehydration.
7. tomorrow is a holiday.sleepy.but i cant sleep.so i am opting to sleep as late as possible.
   
8. im happy with my life now.but i would be way happier if that certain someone didn't walk out of my life.
9. looking forward to my UTP trip next week.sweet.
10. my way of avoiding heartache?turning a blind eye and ear to the particular source of heartache.
11. listening to songs is a good way to learn a language.komm mal her.komm start die maschine.hey du kleiner adroid.lass uns laufen.see?im learning deutsch already.all thanks to tokio hotel's Humanoid Deutsch Edition.
    
12. everything i write here will prolly be on my twitter.haha.
13. facebook is boring.
14. two things i find hot : lefties and twins.
15. most played song on my playlist : Welcome To Oblivion by Madina Lake.
16. IN.DESPERATE.NEED.OF.TOPUP.
17. wish i had lots of money.can pay off my loan and buy an audi TT coupe.sweet.
18. i would love the next guy that comes long in a heartbeat.ONLY IF he can accept me like this.but i dont think any guy can tolerate me.haha.
19. i need to learn to be less stuborn.my best friend always tells me that im stubborn.sigh.
20. told u.everything that happens has a reason.Allah is great in EVERY way.
21. uniten's internet is slower than a snail pulling an oil vessel.
    
22. dumb bacterias attacking my throat.i wanna murder u one by one.
23. so many projects this semester.three in total.numec.emd.islamic 3.
24. i wish i was still a baby.all i would have to do is sleep,cry,poop and drink milk all day.
25. i love milk seriously.like LOVE.every night before bed,i have to have a glass of milk.
26. i dont understand why people bother to have plastic surgery.why go through so much pain only to look uglier in the end?
27. i need to stop talking about people and get a life.
28. its almost three a.m.what have i achieved so far today?absolutely nothing.hmm.productive.
29. i thought he changed his caller ringtone for fun.but he actually "..used to be lovedrunk but now he's hungover.he loves me forever.forever is over.." i was too blind to see i guess.funny.nak gelak pun ada. =))
30. i had my worst show ever just now!i feel like jumping off a cliff.hahahahahahaahaha.everything went so wrong.shall not repeat the same mistake in UTP.
    
31. number 31 already?wow.i am super talkative.haha.
32. learning to be cold hearted again.im sick and tired of being so jelly like.
    
33. there MAYBE some feelings involved now (highlight on that maybe word ye.im still unsure of my feelings.its all so confusing).but im comfy with the way things are between us.please dont change anything.i dont wanna make the same mistake with u the way i did with other people.
34. having a boyfriend doesn't mean dropping all ur stuff behind leaving them strewn all over the floor and running off into neverland.i learned my lesson.
35. im sleeping with my window open tonight.global warming taking its toll tonight.its shit hot.i dont care if i get sick in the morning.haha.
36. i love listening to That Day by Tokio Hotel.the lyrics suit my life well.."everybody says time heals the pain but i've been waiting forever.that day never came"..tak habis2 Tokio Hotel kan?sigh.
37. i love dancing.when im dancing,i feel like im in a different world.i feel like im all alone in my bubble.no one to disturb or harm me.
38. im not pretending to be happy about anything.i really am happy.especially the part where my best friends have my back even when i treated them like shit.i owe them my life.
39. the only thing im sad about however is u.ur the one part of my life that im grieving about.even if u made me sad,doesn't mean i have to be sad about everything else and stop living right?almost every fraction of my life is ok.except the part where there's supposed to be u.ur not there.so only ur part isnt ok and is missing.
40. time to sleep princess.almost four a.m already. =)

roger and oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooouuuuuuuuuuuuuutttttttt!!
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Late Night.

I am supposed to be in bed right now.BUT.i feel a sudden urge of posting something in my blog tonight.last weekend i was so damn busy.my saturday and sunday was fully occupied.i didn't have any time for myself.after walking this earth for nearly twenty one years,only now i realize that im actually a loner.don't get me wrong people.i absolutely LOVE having my friends around me.i love hanging out with my friends.it's just that at any given time of the day,i somehow need time to be alone.all alone.just me myself and i.and a good book.and some loud music please.like right now.ahh.i feel so damn peaceful.the same way i feel when i look up into the sky and see those shimmering stars.haha.nini?jiwang?nope.unlikely. =)

anyway.as i mentioned before,my saturday was occupied with my religion class's community service.we initially signed up to go to the cemetry (creepy but fun!) and pull out weeds but had to switch places a few days before saturday.we ended up painting an apartment somewhere in kajang.who's apartment?well.surprise.surprise.naz and daus's apartment.hahaha.come to think of it,it IS kinda funny.daus painted his own house!daus could've ditched his paint brush and scraper and skipped off home to have a good night's sleep. =)) on our way to the apartment,we came across naz's car parked under a tree.the infamous jennifer.hahaha.see.told u.it wasn't like a community service at all.it felt like we were doing our two buddies a gigantic favor by beautifying their house.all in all,i had a VERY tiring day.but fun.

the one thing i was proud of that day was i didn't get any paint on myself!usually when i paint,i get like these big blotches of paint on my face,arms,shirt and somehow on my tummy.but this time i didn't.awww.someone learned how to paint properly!soo shuweet! *clap clap*

b the w.from next semester onwards,i vow to not register for 8am classes.TOO early for the likes of me.i seriously CANNOT wake up that early.i feel like an underfed zombie with panda circles under my eyes every time i go to my 8am EMD class.i feel like glueing toothpicks on my eyes to stop them from drooping every time i hear the words rotor,stator and transformers.

roger and out.

i need to sleep.

i have a class at 8am tomorrow.

shitness right?

Song Choice 2.

im the kind of person who likes a song based on its lyrics.i dont depend solely on the melody alone.the more beautiful the lyrics are,the better.i love songs with lyrics that have a deep meaning.straight,sweet,direct words catches my heart too at times.like this song.Smile by Uncle Kraker.the lyrics are SUPER sweet.cooooooooooooomel sgt.ni memang lagu orang yang tgh dilamun cinta tahap dewa langit petala ke seratus.wish someone sang me this song till i fall asleep! =)

"You're better then the best
I'm lucky just to linger in your light
Cooler then the flip side of my pillow, that's right
Completely unaware
Nothing can compare to where you send me,
Lets me know that it's ok, yeah it's ok
And the moments where my good times start to fade

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile

Even when you're gone
Somehow you come along
Just like a flower poking the sidewalk crack and just like that
You steal away the rain and just like that

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile

Don't know how I lived without you
Cuz everytime that I get around you
I see the best of me inside your eyes
You make me smile
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile..."

Song Choice 1

i am a complete music freak.i seriously CANNOT live without music.so.since i have a blog,im gonna post my personal song choices every once in awhile.it is not a recommendation to anyone (mainly cuz my song choices are weird!).its plainly for fun.my parents often say what i listen to is "noise".but to most people,they define my song choices as "lagu untuk orang orang pekak" or "lagu tiada halatuju dalam hidup" or "lagu untuk pesakit jiwa" or "lagu untuk jiwa kacau".but hey.every one is entitled to their own opinions.peace. =) every song has a story behind it.some i will tell.some i wont.to me,every lyric every word has a certain meaning that applies to me or some other person.i love all sorts of songs from every kind of genre.my song choices can be pretty random at times.but i specialize in rock mostly.rock suits my soul well.dance and techno comes in second.nice.

my first song choice for this blog is "Inevita" by Jeopardice.this song is in fact recommended by my significant other.thank u for telling me about this song mister significant other!i owe u one. =) its a nice song.all laid back and soothing eventhough the guy sounds funny and kinda nasal.suitable for the hopeless romantics (too bad im not one.hahaha.im more like hopeless minus the romantic).

"have u ever felt that when u look at me
u feel so nervous?
that's what i felt when i first looked at u
ur just too gorgeous
im so glad that this is true
im so glad that im with u
girl u make my life complete

baby its love
baby its love
baby its love

now that i've found u girl
im never letting go
so i wrote this song to let u know
im so glad that this is true
im so glad that im with u
girl u make my life complete

baby its love
baby its love
baby its love.."

lessons.

today i learned a few things.

first.it pays to be patient.sometimes,when things go wrong or when u lose something that u once had or something goes the complete opposite direction from what u want it to be,u need to be patient.very very very very very patient.incidentally,i am not in a place to talk.cuz i am not the biggest fan of patience.i lose my patience even at the slightest things and i have anger management problems.but i do have the patience for certain things.things that i know i wont get or things that i cant have my way.and so i was patient.idiot or not,i waited patiently.things did work all right.well at least for me.so it really really pays to be patient.totally worth it people.

second.october people are very secretive and private.this is my personal opinion.maybe it applies to certain october people only.they kinda clam up when i ask something private.or am i being too kepochi?or am i asking the wrong things?hehe.

third.things happen for a reason.i mean.really really for a reason.semua benda ada hikmah.right?

roger and out laa.mau mandi.malas mau tulis lagi.hehe.

Gong Xi Fa Cai!

happy chinese new year to all my chinese friends out there!hope u guys have a good year and future!gong xi gong xi!ok.i am being SUPER excited and enthusiastic.sue me ok?forgive me people.im sugar high.im always sugar high lately. =P nothing much.its just that im VERY happy to be at home this time.my 1st and 2nd sister's family are all at home with me now.kaknina too.so my house is as crowded as a chicken farm with the little kids running around,rummaging thru closets for toys,yelling and screaming over spilled juice and crumbs of cookies.my house isn't that big.i mean.it isn't mansion like or fancy.my house isnt the kind of house that makes ur jaw drop to the floor everytime u see it.but hey!its soooooo full of love that im thankful for it!Alhamdulillah for my fabulous family and my humble home! =) even my MASSIVE workload cant interfere with my holiday spirit.im so pumped up!Allah is fair.He balances my life with every element : pain and joy.u lose one and u gain one.nice eh?

having a small get together with my family and my neighbour's family tonight.kinda like a bbq party.will be fun!will eat lots tonight!will get fat in mere seconds!ok.the last one was again an exaggeration.again.sue me.hahaha.

oh.last thursday i went out with yana,dueha and zym.THAT was indeed fun.i laughed myself stupid and hoarse around them.hahaha.haven't met dueha in like..a year i think!he's still the same guy.only with more facial hair.and taller.or is it me that's shrinking into a pea pod?soooobb. T.T we met up at the curve for dinner.i got to eat my favorite meatballs at ikea!i cherished every single bite oh.sedaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaappp!i would marry those meatballs if i could!marry em and have little meatball babies!hahaha.after that we went to kota damansara's uptown for a nightcap and supper.then we decided to call it a day.dueha had to work the next morning.

speaking of dueha.while eating at ikea,there was this chick staring the hell out of him.i mean.she STARED real hard at dueha.before she went home,she dropped by at our table.she handed her business card to dueha and told him to come by her office.shites!she wants dueha to attend a casting in shah alam to become a model for an ad.cool right?not everyday u get to hangout and eat meatballs at ikea with a model.hehe.bangga oh ada kawan yang MAYBE bakal jadi model.

signing off people.i need to grill some chicken tonight!

roger and out!

dumdeedums.

i have not updated my blog in like..years!exaggerating as always nini.haha.eventhough i've been extremely busy,i did online much.but i kinda missed out on updating my blog cuz im always busy doing something else.and that something else is always twitter or facebook.these two things are seriously bad for me along with the sims 3 and artificial sugar.they make me stay up late.they make me procastinate on work.they even make happy me in an imaginary kind of way (try playing the sims 3 up to a point where u get married,own a three storey mansion,have a buttload of cash,have a wonderful rockstar husband,a son and twin daughters.how can u NOT imagine things and berangan?sheesh.).these things should be banned!at least for me.teehee.self control.and discipline.that is what i need.nini nini.ur doing badly on ur own. *sigh*

yesterday was mummy's birthday.man i love mum alot.i called her on my way to class at 9am thinking i was the first to wish her.but my brother in law beat me to it.he called at 7am.kambeng tol laa.

but anyway,im supposed to be happy it was mum's birthday yesterday.in a way,it made me kind of sad.because it was mum's sixty third birthday.i wish people would count age backwards.that way,everyone gets younger instead of older.come to think of it,i have only had twenty one birthdays with mum.sixty three minus twenty one.that's fourty two years of her life i missed.birthdays depresses me.huhu.but anyway mum.i know ur not gonna read this.but im writing it for u anyway.happy birthday.may Allah bless u always.semoga panjang umur.nnt mummy boleh teman nini sampai nini besar.sorry i let u down in so many ways.love u lots mummy! <3

mum texted me in class yesterday after i called her.she's kinda retro so she's not very good with handphones.plus,she can't see that well.i know it took her so much trouble to type these two words and to actually send it to me : "sayang nini".penat tahan nangis dalam kelas thermo semlm.two simple words.it meant so much to me.it touched my heart.

besides mum's birthday,yesterday was also supposed to be my 2nd anniversary if i was still with ker0.sadly im not.so no anniversary for me or him!i thought i would be ok.but i got caught up in my emotions after awhile.so again,i was a bit depressed.i cried a bit here and there.hahah.but then later that night,i got better.went to mines with sue,alin and nazrin.sue wanted to buy some eyeliner.nazrin wanted to buy his game cd.i wanted to get earphones for my mp3.we bought our stuff and grabbed some dinner at Carl's Junior.i ate chilli cheese fries.mengidam.hehe.nothing beats the feeling of eating good food and hanging out with your best buddies.

okay.there goes my one hour break.going down to COE to have lunch and get some work done with my groupmates for the Numec project.

I AM IN DESPERATE NEED OF EATING CUPCAKES.bodoh la.

roger and out!