to whom it may concern.

"Allah s.w.t sangat sayangkan orang-orang yg baik.
Orang-orang yang baik akan sentiasa diuji oleh Allah s.w.t.."

have u ever heard this saying before?
im no angel.
so im not really in a position to talk.
but in my opinion,
this saying applies to u.
ur one person i know
that has gone through lots of pain.
too much in fact.
more than all my friends put together.
words are the only help i can offer u
and it does so little to cure ur heart.
no one can comfort u except urself.
but put it this way,
at the end of the day
Allah s.w.t is going to reward u
with something that u REALLY deserve.
so just wait patiently.
it'll be worth it.
trust me.
oh.
in case u haven't noticed,
ur friends are here for u.
not just me.
but a bunch of others.

p.s : thank u haryati ain for the beautiful blogger award!i love u tooooooooooo much to begin with! =D

between lambs and tokio hotel.

day one ; sup kambing at Ali's Bistro Putrajaya.
day two ; grilled lamb shoulder at Rendevous Kampung Pandan KL.
day three ; biriyani rice with lamb at Nasi Biriyani Gam Putrajaya.
day four ; sup kambing at DJ Nasi Kandar Sitiawan.

wowee.what an amazing achievement in four days.to be honest,i have just taught myself to eat lamb about three months back.i used to hate it alot.cuz u know,lambs are often linked with the smell of well.."paradise".u can smell it from miles away.my apetite is taking a 360degree turn and going in a whole new direction.who knows maybe one day i would enjoy a bowl of sambal petai or tempoyak? (God i hope not!).im starting to smell like a lamb by the way.hehe.

i am currently at home in Manjung.i only have classes on mondays and wednesdays this semester.so it seems pointless to stay in KL.but even when im here,there isnt much to do anyway.i dont enjoy watching TV.the household chores are mostly done by the help that comes around every week.i stay in bed all the time most of the day to avoid the scorching hot sun and weather.there aren't many hip places to go to (kampung la bak kata Nazrin).but i enjoy being here all the same.seronok duduk rumah.peluk bantal busuk.peluk baba.peluk mummy.seronok hirup udara kat Manjung.hehe.living in KL is fun but sometimes its good to get away from the hustle and bustle of the city.

and for the record,im a bit disappointed tonight.one of my best friends called a few hours ago to deliver what she thought was the greatest news EVER but turned out to be SO SO SO horrifying for me!one of her guy friends has a mom who works at TM.so apparently the dude has three extra VIP tickets to tokio hotel's showcase and he's selling them for 30bucks a pop.to add insult to injury,another friend of hers won four VIP tickets through a contest on radio.that is like..barrels and barrels of cow shit someone throws at u and hits u right in the face.being the drama queen that i rarely am,i nearly cried.i hope they come again next year for a comeback tour.im praying hard!if only i stayed in KL..haihhh.xpela.bill kaulitz isnt worth crying over (ayat ini adalah untuk menyedapkan hati saya yang sedang luka berdarah).spending time with baba and mummy is more important than watching some german dude in eyeliner singing a couple of songs.

p.s : i dont blame u yana.i know u meant the best for me.hehe.mana ko nak tau aku kat manjung kan?thanks for always being so thoughtful.love u to bits! =)

blank part two.

as promised.
more.
more.
more.
more.
more.
chipsmore.
more.
more.
more.
more pictures.

the five main races that color Malaysia.

my headgear
was blocking the view of everyone behind me.
haha.

onstage performing "Chok Chok Kendong"

five princesses.

five princes.

two sleeping beauties.
two gadget freaks.
penat tunggu turn nak perform.

i have no idea what has gotten into our heads.
a couple of bugs maybe.
hahah.

"hiyaahhh!hamek ko flying kick!"
this is my personal favorite.

Malays.

Chinese.

Indians.

Sabahans.

Sarawakians.

we were bored.
so we became underpaid models!
hahah.

the place where every uniten student
MUST
take a photo at before they graduate.

ok.i need to pee pee.i have to wake up early tomorrow.so roger and out people!goodnight. =)

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wow.i havent been in here for sooooo long.my last entry was in march.that is like a month plus now.how time flies.so many things happened to me in that short amount of time.i sat for my finals for the second semester of my second year at the end of march.even got the results already (i didnt ace it like the previous semester but i did fair enuff.ehh dude.i went thru a breakup and a successive series of culture shock due to new found freedom.what do u expect?haha).AND now im even back in bangi for my intermission!this would be my last intermission where i register for a subject (i hope so) before i graduate in two years time (again,i hope so) because for the next one,i would be doing my practicals (dunno where YET.i have to give that some serious thought before its too late.yikes).

its 2.20am already.what am i doing still wide awake when i have class at 11am tomorrow?ntahla.i really dont know.i have no self control.i cant seem to care about anything anymore.im too lazy to even think for myself let alone other people.hahaha.this intermission has absolutely nothing interesting to offer me since i am only taking one subject : BM.everyday is filled with indescribable boredom since i only have six hours of class each week (4hours of lecture.2hours of consultation which isnt compulsory).it has been two weeks since i registered.up until now honestly,i cant seem to find the relevance between having to learn BM,graduating and building a career.no offense to the Malay language but needless to say,i have been taught this particular language since i was in the womb.calculating my age,20years and 9months.what is there left to learn!?is my college desperate for money or something? T.T

well.at least i have dancing to fill my time.i had a show last saturday at the TNB Headquarters in Bangsar.i aint a professional.im downright amateur.i dance like a stick figure being poked in the butt with a matchstick and made to move about.but hey.at least i can groove a wee bit here and there and dont get pebbles thrown at me on or off stage.kira boleh hidup la. =)) every show has its own memory.i have fun with these people ya know.they make me laugh all the time.hahaha.here are some pics.yes.i never fail to look like a drag queen during every show.im used to it by now.bahaha. XD

queen evil reaching out to rip ur head off!

smirk.smirkier.smirkiest.

only two for now.more will be uploaded later.the internet connection is super shitty now.good night world.need my rest.my brain is on the verge of exploding.